I asked millie about right and wrong, bad and good. I am having a hard time accepting that they do not exist.
"bad and good are judgments. they are not based on what exists, but on what you are *taught* about what exists."
but abandoning all judgment is counter to our evolutionary path. judgment is what kept us alive, judging whether that person or animal is dangerous was key to survival, still is, in many cases.
"this is a vocabulary exercise. when you assess whether someone or something is dangerous to your survival, that is different from judging that someone or something to be bad. these are two separate ideas, the dangerousness of a thing and it's relative 'badness.' humans frequently take the shortcut and just lump the two together. and the 'badness' of a thing is something you made up. it doesn't exist.
there is no good or bad. there is no right or wrong. there is only dark and light. and then there are your preferences about the two. do not confuse your preference for a thing for its 'rightness.' it is just a preference.
humans are really hung up on the whole right and wrong thing. let it go. let go of the judgment."
abandoning judgments of everyone, including ourselves, seems god-like.
"yes."
is that too much to expect from ourselves?
"no. judgment is a habit, deeply ingrained through many lifetimes. it was taught. but you can let go of old habits and the fear that keeps you in them."
it's pretty simple, isn't it, what you are teaching? vibrate at me, allow others to do the same, and live in love.
"yes."
the concept is simple, but implementation...
"is as hard as you make it for yourself."
ah.
are there others like you on the planet?
"yes."
are they all animals?
"not all. but those who choose to come as animals are here to help you more directly as you learn to raise your vibration."
if there is no good or bad, why are we raising the vibration of the planet?
"to see if we can. we have a preference. this planet is of the light. this planet is love. it is time."
Saturday, February 27, 2010
Friday, February 26, 2010
marshmallows
I asked millie yesterday how she knows all of this stuff. she said she remembers it. I asked her *how* she remembers it. she sent me an image of marshmallows arranged in a spiral stair-step pattern, going down and also going up from where I was standing. I couldn't make any sense out of that answer at first, then we were interrupted and I had to wait until the end of the day to resume our conversation. finally, I asked her what the marshmallows represent. she sent me a picture of pearls strung together. I had a flash of understanding. the pearls represent lifetimes. then she took me back to the marshmallow image.
"each marshmallow is a distinct and complete lifetime, but they are all made of the same substance. if you squish them all together, it makes one homogenous thing. that thing is your experience as a spirit in body."
some of the marshmallows are darker, what does that mean?
"there is no wrong or right, there is only dark and light. higher and lower vibrations. we experiment with both. you gravitate toward your preference, but you only know your preference because you have experienced both. that is okay, that's how it works.
you must accept *all* of you, all of your experiences, the dark and the light. then you will have more access to all of your knowledge. your knowledge will be more accessible when you stop shutting out or denying the parts of you that are dark."
how many lifetimes did it take you to access all of your knowledge, once you accepted yourself?
"three."
how many will it take me?
"the planet is holding a higher vibration now -- it can be done immediately -- it is possible to do it now. give yourself permission to accept all that you are."
millie, do you know everything?
"I know everything that I have learned, in all of my lifetimes."
that's a lot.
"yes."
do you like being a cat?
"yes, I chose this."
why?
"there are fewer humans than other animals. being human offers the best opportunity for growth and change. I do not need that level of growth and change, so I left it for someone who needs it more."
so you are fine-tuning?
"yes."
wow.
thank you, millie. as always, I am in awe of you.
"each marshmallow is a distinct and complete lifetime, but they are all made of the same substance. if you squish them all together, it makes one homogenous thing. that thing is your experience as a spirit in body."
some of the marshmallows are darker, what does that mean?
"there is no wrong or right, there is only dark and light. higher and lower vibrations. we experiment with both. you gravitate toward your preference, but you only know your preference because you have experienced both. that is okay, that's how it works.
you must accept *all* of you, all of your experiences, the dark and the light. then you will have more access to all of your knowledge. your knowledge will be more accessible when you stop shutting out or denying the parts of you that are dark."
how many lifetimes did it take you to access all of your knowledge, once you accepted yourself?
"three."
how many will it take me?
"the planet is holding a higher vibration now -- it can be done immediately -- it is possible to do it now. give yourself permission to accept all that you are."
millie, do you know everything?
"I know everything that I have learned, in all of my lifetimes."
that's a lot.
"yes."
do you like being a cat?
"yes, I chose this."
why?
"there are fewer humans than other animals. being human offers the best opportunity for growth and change. I do not need that level of growth and change, so I left it for someone who needs it more."
so you are fine-tuning?
"yes."
wow.
thank you, millie. as always, I am in awe of you.
Thursday, February 25, 2010
communication
millie shows me a waterfall pouring over a many-layered step-like rocky outcropping. the steps, or layers, are not perfectly even like a stairway, but are more random in their spacing and their shapes.
"ease or difficulty in communication partly depends on how many layers, or levels, lie between you and the one you are communicating with. the number of levels that lie between you depends on many things, and can be different for different topics. humans are multi-layered, and you communicate on one level about some things and a completely different level about others.
communication is a type of flow -- that's what the water represents. in order for it to flow, you must let go of any attachment to the outcome, or the impact of your communication."
wait a minute, I thought some of the main purposes of communication were to have a certain impact, to convey certain information, to get someone to do what you want them to do? what about to be understood?
"it works much better if you do not expect. think of it like writing a book or a song. you put your intention into the words and then you release them to the world. it is not your choice how people read your book or hear your song. that choice is up to the reader and the listener.
it would seem silly for an author to demand that you respond to their words a certain way -- to assign them only one meaning, the meaning she assigned them. how you interpret written words is up to you, the audience, the receiver.
it is no different for spoken words. craft them carefully so that they hold your true intention. be honest with yourself about what your true intention is. then release them. your responsibility for the words ends when you release them. you are responsible for their creation and the energy you charge them with, but you cannot possibly know or dictate how they will be received.
if your words are an accurate representation of your true intention, they carry that energy with them. if someone misinterprets your words, or is not able to understand them, it could be that you are communicating across too many levels -- but that is not a problem with the words or the energy, it is a problem with the distance between the sender and the receiver for that topic. you can try again with different words, as long as they still truly and accurately describe your intention. sometimes that will work, sometimes not."
it seems to be a key issue whether your words are true and accurate and honest.
"yes."
what about white lies?
"some white lies are positive words covering up negative feelings. the words do not really cover the feelings. both the sender and the receiver know, on some level, that the feelings are negative. better to be silent in that situation."
what about a situation where the truth could really hurt (a friend asks if they look fat, for example, and they do)?
"in that situation, positive words are conveying positive feelings -- that you love your friend and don't want to hurt them. they aren't the exact truth, but your words and the underlying feelings match in a less exact way."
this seems to be a fairly strict standard of honesty.
"it is not possible to lie to another. on some level, they read the energy behind the words and the energy never lies."
wow. okay.
thank you, millie.
"ease or difficulty in communication partly depends on how many layers, or levels, lie between you and the one you are communicating with. the number of levels that lie between you depends on many things, and can be different for different topics. humans are multi-layered, and you communicate on one level about some things and a completely different level about others.
communication is a type of flow -- that's what the water represents. in order for it to flow, you must let go of any attachment to the outcome, or the impact of your communication."
wait a minute, I thought some of the main purposes of communication were to have a certain impact, to convey certain information, to get someone to do what you want them to do? what about to be understood?
"it works much better if you do not expect. think of it like writing a book or a song. you put your intention into the words and then you release them to the world. it is not your choice how people read your book or hear your song. that choice is up to the reader and the listener.
it would seem silly for an author to demand that you respond to their words a certain way -- to assign them only one meaning, the meaning she assigned them. how you interpret written words is up to you, the audience, the receiver.
it is no different for spoken words. craft them carefully so that they hold your true intention. be honest with yourself about what your true intention is. then release them. your responsibility for the words ends when you release them. you are responsible for their creation and the energy you charge them with, but you cannot possibly know or dictate how they will be received.
if your words are an accurate representation of your true intention, they carry that energy with them. if someone misinterprets your words, or is not able to understand them, it could be that you are communicating across too many levels -- but that is not a problem with the words or the energy, it is a problem with the distance between the sender and the receiver for that topic. you can try again with different words, as long as they still truly and accurately describe your intention. sometimes that will work, sometimes not."
it seems to be a key issue whether your words are true and accurate and honest.
"yes."
what about white lies?
"some white lies are positive words covering up negative feelings. the words do not really cover the feelings. both the sender and the receiver know, on some level, that the feelings are negative. better to be silent in that situation."
what about a situation where the truth could really hurt (a friend asks if they look fat, for example, and they do)?
"in that situation, positive words are conveying positive feelings -- that you love your friend and don't want to hurt them. they aren't the exact truth, but your words and the underlying feelings match in a less exact way."
this seems to be a fairly strict standard of honesty.
"it is not possible to lie to another. on some level, they read the energy behind the words and the energy never lies."
wow. okay.
thank you, millie.
Wednesday, February 24, 2010
clear your space
I came to the office in a funk today. nothing specific, just down and discouraged. I was already wondering how to shake myself out of it.
millie showed me a human holding an umbrella in a soft rain. there was a definite distinction between the atmosphere under the umbrella and the atmosphere outside of it.
"you are responsible for your space, for keeping it clear. your space is approximately the size of the clearing under an umbrella.
to clear your space, give your own true vibration a color. vibrate at that color for a moment, and then lighten it at least one shade. bring your vibration up a notch. think about vibrating at the new shade. intend that you continue to vibrate at the lighter shade. it doesn't require any effort, just intend.
use your tools. check to make sure you are grounded. visualize the heavy energy leaving your space. move it out with intention, without effort. and it always helps to have a cat on your lap to pet. we raise your vibration."
of course it worked. I am feeling much better now. I started with gray gloomy pictures of me under a black umbrella in a steady downpour on a cloudy day. I ended up with a spring shower, the kind where the sun is shining through the rain, standing on bright spring green grass with little baby ducklings waddling around. it was quite a shift.
and yes, millie was on my lap. =)
thank you, millie.
millie showed me a human holding an umbrella in a soft rain. there was a definite distinction between the atmosphere under the umbrella and the atmosphere outside of it.
"you are responsible for your space, for keeping it clear. your space is approximately the size of the clearing under an umbrella.
to clear your space, give your own true vibration a color. vibrate at that color for a moment, and then lighten it at least one shade. bring your vibration up a notch. think about vibrating at the new shade. intend that you continue to vibrate at the lighter shade. it doesn't require any effort, just intend.
use your tools. check to make sure you are grounded. visualize the heavy energy leaving your space. move it out with intention, without effort. and it always helps to have a cat on your lap to pet. we raise your vibration."
of course it worked. I am feeling much better now. I started with gray gloomy pictures of me under a black umbrella in a steady downpour on a cloudy day. I ended up with a spring shower, the kind where the sun is shining through the rain, standing on bright spring green grass with little baby ducklings waddling around. it was quite a shift.
and yes, millie was on my lap. =)
thank you, millie.
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
difficult people
"difficult people are unhappy people. they give themselves no permission to be free, to flow, to be happy. they can't control their own lives, so many times they try to control the lives of others in order to gain control in their own. they don't realize that control is an illusion.
they carry a lot of victim energy, and don't realize that they are the only ones standing between themselves and lightness of being. they are constantly looking outward for someone or something to blame, never inward to accept responsibility for the life they are creating."
I ask her if she has any suggestions for dealing with difficult people. any ideas for letting them brush by without affecting us.
"stay out of judgment. allow them to walk their path. allow them to be who they are. avoid attracting that kind of energy to you by removing your attention and your focus. don't dwell on the behavior of others. use your tools -- stay centered, don't take on the vibration of others. vibrate at you.
if you can't say something nice, say nothing."
so mom was right. =)
thank you, millie.
they carry a lot of victim energy, and don't realize that they are the only ones standing between themselves and lightness of being. they are constantly looking outward for someone or something to blame, never inward to accept responsibility for the life they are creating."
I ask her if she has any suggestions for dealing with difficult people. any ideas for letting them brush by without affecting us.
"stay out of judgment. allow them to walk their path. allow them to be who they are. avoid attracting that kind of energy to you by removing your attention and your focus. don't dwell on the behavior of others. use your tools -- stay centered, don't take on the vibration of others. vibrate at you.
if you can't say something nice, say nothing."
so mom was right. =)
thank you, millie.
Monday, February 22, 2010
lightness of being
millie shows me colorful helium balloons and hot air balloons floating through the sky. I ask her why those things make me happy.
"they literally lift your spirit. they remind you of your natural state: free, light, floating, joyous"
she sends me a feeling like the giddy weightlessness at the top of the roller coaster, the free flying moment at the front and back of each arc of the swing on the swing set.
how do we achieve it?
"allow. release. it is a choice to hang on to heavy energy or to let it go. tie each of your worries or troubles to a balloon and let it float away. feel yourself getting lighter with each one gone.
pay attention to your vibration. practice changing it. practice raising your vibration. think of the giddiness you felt as a kid. match it. hold it for a moment, or longer if you can. it might be uncomfortable at first, it is unfamiliar to you now. keep practicing, it will get easier.
each of you is a master musician, you can play any song you choose. the more you practice the easier it gets.
seek out things that lift your spirits. colorful balloons. evergreen green against perfect sky blue. sunlight sparkling on snow. warm sandy beaches. don't go into effort, just accept what comes to you and *focus* on it, even for a moment. appreciate beauty all around you. live from that space.
this is your natural state. vibrate at peace and love and joy."
thank you, millie.
"they literally lift your spirit. they remind you of your natural state: free, light, floating, joyous"
she sends me a feeling like the giddy weightlessness at the top of the roller coaster, the free flying moment at the front and back of each arc of the swing on the swing set.
how do we achieve it?
"allow. release. it is a choice to hang on to heavy energy or to let it go. tie each of your worries or troubles to a balloon and let it float away. feel yourself getting lighter with each one gone.
pay attention to your vibration. practice changing it. practice raising your vibration. think of the giddiness you felt as a kid. match it. hold it for a moment, or longer if you can. it might be uncomfortable at first, it is unfamiliar to you now. keep practicing, it will get easier.
each of you is a master musician, you can play any song you choose. the more you practice the easier it gets.
seek out things that lift your spirits. colorful balloons. evergreen green against perfect sky blue. sunlight sparkling on snow. warm sandy beaches. don't go into effort, just accept what comes to you and *focus* on it, even for a moment. appreciate beauty all around you. live from that space.
this is your natural state. vibrate at peace and love and joy."
thank you, millie.
Saturday, February 20, 2010
life, death, immortality
"humans have a lot of scary pictures about death. know that those are just pictures. what you call death is just a transition, a way of moving between levels."
I couldn't exactly translate what millie sent me about what we move between. dimensions isn't right, levels isn't exactly right either, it's more like 'beingnesses' which I decided was too unwieldy, not to mention made up.
she shows me a river of light, and human forms getting into boats and traveling down the river of light until they disappear into a blinding white light that the river is flowing toward.
"life and death are both part of the flow. the flow is endless and circular. when you incarnate, you leave friends and loved ones behind in order to live in a body, to experience and learn the things that you can only learn while in body. when you leave each lifetime, you leave friends and loved ones behind so that you can transition out of your body.
the lessons you learn during each lifetime, each in-body experience, help to move you along on your path as a spirit. each lifetime changes us, helps us grow, and then we graduate to the next topic, phase, place on our path."
millie uses 'us' to mean all of us, animals and humans. she also says not every lifetime is for learning and growing. sometimes we just live. we don't have to have goals. there is no one keeping score.
"spend your time savoring life. squeeze every drop of juice from the fruit. stay present in the moment, do not worry about the future. the future does not exist. wild animals do not worry about 'not dying' they concentrate on 'staying alive.' focus on now. now is real.
children and animals understand that there is no end, only change. you learn your death pictures as you grow up in human society, and you agree to pick them up and carry them forward with you. children and animals generally do not come into the world with death pictures. they come in with the understanding that the you that is your spirit will never end, cannot be killed, will cycle through many lifetimes as the flow continues to move us all in the dance of life and death and life again.
we are all immortal, and each lifetime is a gift, a choice. enjoy your time here, learn your lessons or not, know that you will be back. set down your death pictures and enjoy the flow."
I couldn't exactly translate what millie sent me about what we move between. dimensions isn't right, levels isn't exactly right either, it's more like 'beingnesses' which I decided was too unwieldy, not to mention made up.
she shows me a river of light, and human forms getting into boats and traveling down the river of light until they disappear into a blinding white light that the river is flowing toward.
"life and death are both part of the flow. the flow is endless and circular. when you incarnate, you leave friends and loved ones behind in order to live in a body, to experience and learn the things that you can only learn while in body. when you leave each lifetime, you leave friends and loved ones behind so that you can transition out of your body.
the lessons you learn during each lifetime, each in-body experience, help to move you along on your path as a spirit. each lifetime changes us, helps us grow, and then we graduate to the next topic, phase, place on our path."
millie uses 'us' to mean all of us, animals and humans. she also says not every lifetime is for learning and growing. sometimes we just live. we don't have to have goals. there is no one keeping score.
"spend your time savoring life. squeeze every drop of juice from the fruit. stay present in the moment, do not worry about the future. the future does not exist. wild animals do not worry about 'not dying' they concentrate on 'staying alive.' focus on now. now is real.
children and animals understand that there is no end, only change. you learn your death pictures as you grow up in human society, and you agree to pick them up and carry them forward with you. children and animals generally do not come into the world with death pictures. they come in with the understanding that the you that is your spirit will never end, cannot be killed, will cycle through many lifetimes as the flow continues to move us all in the dance of life and death and life again.
we are all immortal, and each lifetime is a gift, a choice. enjoy your time here, learn your lessons or not, know that you will be back. set down your death pictures and enjoy the flow."
Thursday, February 18, 2010
regression
"infants and toddlers throw a tantrum when things don't go their way. this frustration and anger and helplessness that lead to violence - let's call it ogre energy - this ogre energy is an early attempt at getting your needs met. it worked ok then. it doesn't work too well now.
sometimes you regress when you experience a feeling that reminds you of ogre energy, particularly frustration. when you feel frustrated, especially when there is some self-blame going on, it is easy to slide into ogre energy. only now, when you feel ogre energy, you generally don't direct it outward, you direct it inward. you yell and scream at yourself, you are impatient and intolerant and not nice. you hit and kick and behave badly. you beat yourself up. and then you beat yourself up even more for allowing the internal tantrum, for being an ogre to yourself. it's a no-win.
it is not easy being human. you have so many habits - personal, social, as a species - that lead you to self-violence. I invite you to practice love, practice understanding, practice forgiveness. practice on *you.*
give yourself permission to learn and grow and make mistakes. permission to be human. permission to *be.*
when you feel frustrated, allow it. when you are angry, allow it. feel your feelings and then move on, don't punish yourself for them. be an ogre if you need to be. and then lighten up!"
sometimes you regress when you experience a feeling that reminds you of ogre energy, particularly frustration. when you feel frustrated, especially when there is some self-blame going on, it is easy to slide into ogre energy. only now, when you feel ogre energy, you generally don't direct it outward, you direct it inward. you yell and scream at yourself, you are impatient and intolerant and not nice. you hit and kick and behave badly. you beat yourself up. and then you beat yourself up even more for allowing the internal tantrum, for being an ogre to yourself. it's a no-win.
it is not easy being human. you have so many habits - personal, social, as a species - that lead you to self-violence. I invite you to practice love, practice understanding, practice forgiveness. practice on *you.*
give yourself permission to learn and grow and make mistakes. permission to be human. permission to *be.*
when you feel frustrated, allow it. when you are angry, allow it. feel your feelings and then move on, don't punish yourself for them. be an ogre if you need to be. and then lighten up!"
Wednesday, February 17, 2010
walls
"the walls that keep you safe keep you trapped. what keeps others out also keeps you in. humor at your own or others' expense is a wall. sarcasm is a wall. you have other tools to establish your boundaries.
live from your heart. let your love melt the walls. don't be afraid to reach out, don't be afraid to let others reach in. your common sense will not desert you. you will still be safe from harm, your space will be filled with love, and you will be free."
I am having a hard time thinking of what might remain funny if I can't laugh at myself and others.
"it's the quality of laughter that matters. don't be mean about it, don't invite others to ridicule you, don't ridicule yourself. laugh at everything, life is not serious, humans just tend to make it so. you will do things that make you laugh. you will make mistakes. laugh at them, enjoy your learning process. laugh with joy. laugh with love. laugh with, not at."
I'm getting sort of a naked feeling when I think about moving through life with no protective walls.
"that way of thinking is a habit. instead of viewing the walls as protective, think of them as restrictive, heavy, burdensome. because that is what they are, that is how they function. they keep you from connection, they impede flow. it's hard to float when you are wearing a heavy wall."
true. I can see that.
"you don't have to go cold turkey. experiment by dropping the walls with people you feel safe with. or just one person. find out for yourself that the world won't come rushing in to attack. your boundaries are secure, they are light and flexible and filled with love. they float with you in the flow."
thank you, millie.
live from your heart. let your love melt the walls. don't be afraid to reach out, don't be afraid to let others reach in. your common sense will not desert you. you will still be safe from harm, your space will be filled with love, and you will be free."
I am having a hard time thinking of what might remain funny if I can't laugh at myself and others.
"it's the quality of laughter that matters. don't be mean about it, don't invite others to ridicule you, don't ridicule yourself. laugh at everything, life is not serious, humans just tend to make it so. you will do things that make you laugh. you will make mistakes. laugh at them, enjoy your learning process. laugh with joy. laugh with love. laugh with, not at."
I'm getting sort of a naked feeling when I think about moving through life with no protective walls.
"that way of thinking is a habit. instead of viewing the walls as protective, think of them as restrictive, heavy, burdensome. because that is what they are, that is how they function. they keep you from connection, they impede flow. it's hard to float when you are wearing a heavy wall."
true. I can see that.
"you don't have to go cold turkey. experiment by dropping the walls with people you feel safe with. or just one person. find out for yourself that the world won't come rushing in to attack. your boundaries are secure, they are light and flexible and filled with love. they float with you in the flow."
thank you, millie.
Tuesday, February 16, 2010
celery song
so, millie, what's the topic today?
"celery."
celery?
"yes."
the vegetable? (truly, I couldn't make this stuff up.)
"yes."
what about it?
"it grows in a nice, compact group. every stalk fits together. humans are like that. you grow best when surrounded by others who fit. you nurture and support one another, you aren't all the same, but you complement one another."
so we need to look for our bunch of celery?
"yes."
and then?
"grow, support each other, be synergistic, vibrate in harmony. your individual vibrations will combine to make a song. the music of the universe is made up of individual vibrations and groups of vibrations. the more you walk your path, the clearer your vibration becomes. sing your song. make your music."
thank you, millie.
"celery."
celery?
"yes."
the vegetable? (truly, I couldn't make this stuff up.)
"yes."
what about it?
"it grows in a nice, compact group. every stalk fits together. humans are like that. you grow best when surrounded by others who fit. you nurture and support one another, you aren't all the same, but you complement one another."
so we need to look for our bunch of celery?
"yes."
and then?
"grow, support each other, be synergistic, vibrate in harmony. your individual vibrations will combine to make a song. the music of the universe is made up of individual vibrations and groups of vibrations. the more you walk your path, the clearer your vibration becomes. sing your song. make your music."
thank you, millie.
Monday, February 15, 2010
lions & tigers & bears, oh my
"lions and tigers and bears are real fears that you use as a shield, to keep you from looking into dark corners. but fear is a sign-post, a neon arrow, pointing you to the places that need the light the most.
your own lions and tigers and bears could be anything. they could be about anything. it doesn't matter what they are about. you can dig them up and examine them and possibly even understand them, and yet still feel them, still let them affect you.
get rid of your fears by ceasing to acknowledge them, remove your focus, remove your energy.
intend, as you are creating your world with each forward step into what-is-yet-to-be, that your world is without fear. do it, not by thinking of them, but by *not* thinking of them. you are complete and whole, and totally without fear. there is no room for lions and tigers and bears in your world. create them out of existence by ceasing to think about them.
sometimes it is not a weakness you fear, sometimes it is a strength. you are powerful, there is no need for you to fear yourself. embrace your strength. step into your power. don't judge yourself for having lions and tigers and bears, they served a purpose.
have fun, be light, be easy on yourself. always interact through love, with yourself, with everyone."
thank you, millie.
your own lions and tigers and bears could be anything. they could be about anything. it doesn't matter what they are about. you can dig them up and examine them and possibly even understand them, and yet still feel them, still let them affect you.
get rid of your fears by ceasing to acknowledge them, remove your focus, remove your energy.
intend, as you are creating your world with each forward step into what-is-yet-to-be, that your world is without fear. do it, not by thinking of them, but by *not* thinking of them. you are complete and whole, and totally without fear. there is no room for lions and tigers and bears in your world. create them out of existence by ceasing to think about them.
sometimes it is not a weakness you fear, sometimes it is a strength. you are powerful, there is no need for you to fear yourself. embrace your strength. step into your power. don't judge yourself for having lions and tigers and bears, they served a purpose.
have fun, be light, be easy on yourself. always interact through love, with yourself, with everyone."
thank you, millie.
Sunday, February 14, 2010
co-creating
"as powerful as you are alone, you are infinitely more powerful as a group. when you co-create, you can change the world."
millie shows me a scene similar to the one on the beach, only this time there is a line of people walking hand-in-hand, along parallel paths, and each step brings them to the edge of creation -- the boundary between this moment and infinity -- each step is creation itself. they are co-creating their world.
"this is very powerful. when you walk together in love, intending to manifest together, incredible things happen."
I've seen 'the secret' and 'what the bleep,' and I have been thinking about the law of attraction as a sort of abstract and future-oriented idea. by that I mean I believe I am creating my world, but it has always seemed to me that I was creating my future. millie says we are creating our *now.*
"find your group, your community, your tribe. walk together in love, intending healing for yourselves and for the planet. create beauty and wonder and magic everywhere you look. be in bliss. be in ease. be in love."
thank you, millie.
millie shows me a scene similar to the one on the beach, only this time there is a line of people walking hand-in-hand, along parallel paths, and each step brings them to the edge of creation -- the boundary between this moment and infinity -- each step is creation itself. they are co-creating their world.
"this is very powerful. when you walk together in love, intending to manifest together, incredible things happen."
I've seen 'the secret' and 'what the bleep,' and I have been thinking about the law of attraction as a sort of abstract and future-oriented idea. by that I mean I believe I am creating my world, but it has always seemed to me that I was creating my future. millie says we are creating our *now.*
"find your group, your community, your tribe. walk together in love, intending healing for yourselves and for the planet. create beauty and wonder and magic everywhere you look. be in bliss. be in ease. be in love."
thank you, millie.
Saturday, February 13, 2010
believe in yourself
"you can create for yourself anything you need. you are capable of climbing to unimaginable heights and pulling the answers to your needs from thin air. the only thing missing is your belief in yourself. anything is possible! there are NO LIMITS.
self-doubt is heavy, limiting, stifling -- it is like a cage and you are trapped inside. self-doubt keeps you prisoner. it keeps you from flying, it keeps you from being the truly magical person you are. self-doubt is a very heavy, dark energy. it is crushing you, keeping you down.
the thing about self-doubt is *you* are the key to getting out of your cage. you can unlock it and walk free at any time. the only thing keeping you in the cage is you. in fact, the cage doesn't really exist. you made it up. but its effect on you is very real. don't mistake the real-ness of the effects of self-doubt as proof of the reality for the doubt itself. just because the non-existent cage keeps you from flying, from doing anything and everything you have ever dreamed -- just because the cage *acts* like a cage -- doesn't make it real. it is not real. it is imaginary.
give up your imaginary prison of self-doubt. walk away. fly away. be free to be who you really are."
I am tracking you, mil, but *how* exactly do we unlock our cages? if it were easy, I'm guessing everyone would have done it already.
"as with most things that are created in your mind, this requires a shift in perspective. you must slide your mind slightly to the side and look at this with new eyes."
that is the literal translation of what she sent me. but I need more help, so I asked her
how do we shift our perspective?
"go to the fountain inside of you that is your mind's eye, your godhead, the source of your magic. ask your inner oracle what is possible. everything is possible. your inner oracle knows. and you must believe."
and that will help us shift our perspective?
"you cannot meet your true essence and not be changed. the act of journeying inward and seeing the magic and beauty that is you will shift you."
I did as millie suggested. I have no idea what effect it had on my level of self-doubt, but I can say it was amazing and I do feel different, lighter somehow.
thank you, millie.
"you are welcome."
did we get it all?
"ride the wave."
she sends me an amazing, peaceful vision of floating on the crest of a blue wave. when I ask her what the wave is, she says
"that is your flow. relax. enjoy."
the wave carries me gently along and sets me down on a beautiful beach.
"you are outside of the cages of your own making. you are on the shore of endless possibility. move forward and create your world."
as I step forward onto the beach, the hazy, swirly light in front of me becomes solid ground, each step solidifies another part of the ground. I walk forward and realize that I am *creating* this as I go. I visualize things and they appear. it is effortless and instant. it feels like a daydream or a meditation. I am always walking at the very edge of what's real (behind me, underneath me, beside me) and what is yet-to-be. I really enjoyed this daydream, so I walked along creating things for a while, and then I wondered
what is this a metaphor for?
"this is your life. this is how it works. you have unlimited creative potential, and you *create* your life. it isn't a metaphor. this is it."
holy shit.
she hops off my lap. we are done. I have got it.
self-doubt is heavy, limiting, stifling -- it is like a cage and you are trapped inside. self-doubt keeps you prisoner. it keeps you from flying, it keeps you from being the truly magical person you are. self-doubt is a very heavy, dark energy. it is crushing you, keeping you down.
the thing about self-doubt is *you* are the key to getting out of your cage. you can unlock it and walk free at any time. the only thing keeping you in the cage is you. in fact, the cage doesn't really exist. you made it up. but its effect on you is very real. don't mistake the real-ness of the effects of self-doubt as proof of the reality for the doubt itself. just because the non-existent cage keeps you from flying, from doing anything and everything you have ever dreamed -- just because the cage *acts* like a cage -- doesn't make it real. it is not real. it is imaginary.
give up your imaginary prison of self-doubt. walk away. fly away. be free to be who you really are."
I am tracking you, mil, but *how* exactly do we unlock our cages? if it were easy, I'm guessing everyone would have done it already.
"as with most things that are created in your mind, this requires a shift in perspective. you must slide your mind slightly to the side and look at this with new eyes."
that is the literal translation of what she sent me. but I need more help, so I asked her
how do we shift our perspective?
"go to the fountain inside of you that is your mind's eye, your godhead, the source of your magic. ask your inner oracle what is possible. everything is possible. your inner oracle knows. and you must believe."
and that will help us shift our perspective?
"you cannot meet your true essence and not be changed. the act of journeying inward and seeing the magic and beauty that is you will shift you."
I did as millie suggested. I have no idea what effect it had on my level of self-doubt, but I can say it was amazing and I do feel different, lighter somehow.
thank you, millie.
"you are welcome."
did we get it all?
"ride the wave."
she sends me an amazing, peaceful vision of floating on the crest of a blue wave. when I ask her what the wave is, she says
"that is your flow. relax. enjoy."
the wave carries me gently along and sets me down on a beautiful beach.
"you are outside of the cages of your own making. you are on the shore of endless possibility. move forward and create your world."
as I step forward onto the beach, the hazy, swirly light in front of me becomes solid ground, each step solidifies another part of the ground. I walk forward and realize that I am *creating* this as I go. I visualize things and they appear. it is effortless and instant. it feels like a daydream or a meditation. I am always walking at the very edge of what's real (behind me, underneath me, beside me) and what is yet-to-be. I really enjoyed this daydream, so I walked along creating things for a while, and then I wondered
what is this a metaphor for?
"this is your life. this is how it works. you have unlimited creative potential, and you *create* your life. it isn't a metaphor. this is it."
holy shit.
she hops off my lap. we are done. I have got it.
Friday, February 12, 2010
attachment
"your attachment to certain things, certain pathways, certain outcomes, causes pain. it impedes your flow."
millie shows me people floating in a river. some are floating along with the current, but most have their hands stuck to something on the bank -- a house, a car, another person, or something more abstract. as the current pulls against them, their arms stretch out like a cartoon. it looks funny, but it isn't. it is painful to be pulled that way. eventually the substance (stubbornness?) that sticks them to the things on the bank will fail, but it won't part gently, it will rip, leaving chunks of them behind with the thing they were hanging on to.
"the universe will give you what you need, but not necessarily what you THINK you need. if you learn to let go, to go with the flow, life becomes easier, more joyful, less painful. life *is* flow.
let go. trust that you will float. let go of the need for control. trust that you will have what you need. let go of the attachment to specific things, ways to accomplish things, outcomes. trust. it is better to let go voluntarily than to find out the hard way just how strong this current is."
what about planning for the future? isn't that important?
"as long as your future plans are fluid, able to adapt to and change with any change in the flow, future planning is a good thing. it is only when the construction of those plans and dreams becomes rigid and inflexible that they pose a danger."
any advice for us on that?
"hold everything loosely. your possessions, your loved ones, your dreams. hold them as if they were baby birds that could be crushed with too much pressure. hold them as though you are ready to let them go."
thank you, millie.
millie shows me people floating in a river. some are floating along with the current, but most have their hands stuck to something on the bank -- a house, a car, another person, or something more abstract. as the current pulls against them, their arms stretch out like a cartoon. it looks funny, but it isn't. it is painful to be pulled that way. eventually the substance (stubbornness?) that sticks them to the things on the bank will fail, but it won't part gently, it will rip, leaving chunks of them behind with the thing they were hanging on to.
"the universe will give you what you need, but not necessarily what you THINK you need. if you learn to let go, to go with the flow, life becomes easier, more joyful, less painful. life *is* flow.
let go. trust that you will float. let go of the need for control. trust that you will have what you need. let go of the attachment to specific things, ways to accomplish things, outcomes. trust. it is better to let go voluntarily than to find out the hard way just how strong this current is."
what about planning for the future? isn't that important?
"as long as your future plans are fluid, able to adapt to and change with any change in the flow, future planning is a good thing. it is only when the construction of those plans and dreams becomes rigid and inflexible that they pose a danger."
any advice for us on that?
"hold everything loosely. your possessions, your loved ones, your dreams. hold them as if they were baby birds that could be crushed with too much pressure. hold them as though you are ready to let them go."
thank you, millie.
Thursday, February 11, 2010
love yourself
I don't know about you, but my response to millie's messages has been two-fold. first, wow, what an amazing being she is, with such valuable information to share and how true it feels when I hear it. and second, wow, what a horrible person I am, full of failings and shortcomings that she highlights almost daily.
"push your envelope. reach for more, be willing to examine your deepest, darkest places and shine your light into them. but the music that carries my lyrics, the ever-present meta-message to my communications, is LOVE YOURSELF.
love is the answer. love is the key. love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love .
in order to do this work, in order to fully express who you are, you must be kind and gentle and respectful and reverent with you. you must love yourself so that you can show others how to love."
I can tell you that millie delivers her messages with love, in love, with no trace of judgment or hint of impatience. she embodies love.
thank you millie, we love you.
"push your envelope. reach for more, be willing to examine your deepest, darkest places and shine your light into them. but the music that carries my lyrics, the ever-present meta-message to my communications, is LOVE YOURSELF.
love is the answer. love is the key. love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love .
in order to do this work, in order to fully express who you are, you must be kind and gentle and respectful and reverent with you. you must love yourself so that you can show others how to love."
I can tell you that millie delivers her messages with love, in love, with no trace of judgment or hint of impatience. she embodies love.
thank you millie, we love you.
Wednesday, February 10, 2010
conflict
"conflict is a habit. in many cases you can avoid it by deconstructing your own position. chances are good that your position contains a variety of judgments. 'they should do this.' 'they shouldn't have done that.' 'if they had/hadn't [fill in the blank] then this wouldn't have happened.'
the problem with conflict is it blinds you to the connection, the love, the common purpose.
conflict is harder to avoid when you are reacting in the moment, but it is possible. take time, look inside yourself. how much of the conflict is yours alone? if you did not carry that conflict forward, if you did not provide it with a safe and comfortable place to rest, would it go away?
sometimes the answer is no. sometimes the safe and comfortable place lies with the other person. but you can let go of your part. you can give it less of a foothold. you can release your negative feelings and absolve yourself of any responsibility for maintaining the conflict.
what would happen in the world if you stopped responding when someone hands you a conflict? if you refused to play your part?"
millie sent me this message as I was in the midst of dealing with my own unpleasant feelings about what someone did not do that I considered to be their responsibility, in fact I pay them to do it. I am not proud to report that my anger over the situation was completely my responsibility. true, they were supposed to do it. true, they didn't. but I exaggerated the negative effect of their failure to do it, in order to fuel my anger, to provide my feelings of conflict a 'safe, comfortable' place to sit. I am right about the facts, but my choices around that (being angry and sending negative energy to others) can't be construed as 'right.'
"right does not matter. humans are so caught up in who is 'right.' right is relative to the situation, not an abstract or absolute truth."
so our legal system has it all wrong, huh?
"there is no absolute 'right' that can be applied from outside a particular situation or interaction between people. the 'right' for that situation or interaction is dependent on the people involved. on the energy involved.
if someone agreed to do something and they are not doing it, why aren't they doing it? is it possible for them to do it? do they want to do it? if they are abandoning a promise or agreement, there is always a reason. your judgment of the 'rightness' of their reason is what causes the conflict. or your disregard of the possibility that they may have a reason at all.
every interaction is a gift. every interaction is a relationship. rather than looking for ways to make another wrong, look for *your* gift in the situation. how will this help you on your soul path? what is your lesson?"
thank you, millie.
the problem with conflict is it blinds you to the connection, the love, the common purpose.
conflict is harder to avoid when you are reacting in the moment, but it is possible. take time, look inside yourself. how much of the conflict is yours alone? if you did not carry that conflict forward, if you did not provide it with a safe and comfortable place to rest, would it go away?
sometimes the answer is no. sometimes the safe and comfortable place lies with the other person. but you can let go of your part. you can give it less of a foothold. you can release your negative feelings and absolve yourself of any responsibility for maintaining the conflict.
what would happen in the world if you stopped responding when someone hands you a conflict? if you refused to play your part?"
millie sent me this message as I was in the midst of dealing with my own unpleasant feelings about what someone did not do that I considered to be their responsibility, in fact I pay them to do it. I am not proud to report that my anger over the situation was completely my responsibility. true, they were supposed to do it. true, they didn't. but I exaggerated the negative effect of their failure to do it, in order to fuel my anger, to provide my feelings of conflict a 'safe, comfortable' place to sit. I am right about the facts, but my choices around that (being angry and sending negative energy to others) can't be construed as 'right.'
"right does not matter. humans are so caught up in who is 'right.' right is relative to the situation, not an abstract or absolute truth."
so our legal system has it all wrong, huh?
"there is no absolute 'right' that can be applied from outside a particular situation or interaction between people. the 'right' for that situation or interaction is dependent on the people involved. on the energy involved.
if someone agreed to do something and they are not doing it, why aren't they doing it? is it possible for them to do it? do they want to do it? if they are abandoning a promise or agreement, there is always a reason. your judgment of the 'rightness' of their reason is what causes the conflict. or your disregard of the possibility that they may have a reason at all.
every interaction is a gift. every interaction is a relationship. rather than looking for ways to make another wrong, look for *your* gift in the situation. how will this help you on your soul path? what is your lesson?"
thank you, millie.
Tuesday, February 9, 2010
body & soul
"aspiring to true and authentic life does not mean that you leave your body behind in pursuit of the spirit. the body is of the earth and connected to the physical. honor the body, including the emotions, reactions and physical needs that come with having a body.
many humans right now are focusing exclusively on the spirit, to the exclusion of their physical selves and their health and wellbeing. as spirit in body, you will reach the highest harmony with yourself if you honor the physical as well as the spiritual. balance between the two can be achieved by focusing your attention on the balance point.
you will be spirit-only again. there is no hurry. you can accomplish things in-body that cannot be done as spirit-only. savor this experience. treasure it. enjoy the love, the joy and the giddiness as you honor the anger, the frustration and the sadness. these in-body experiences serve you. you need them.
connect with the earth through your physical form. honor the physical all around you. invite spirit to join you here, in your body, on the earth. embrace the duality that is your unique form at this time in this place. enjoy."
thank you, millie.
many humans right now are focusing exclusively on the spirit, to the exclusion of their physical selves and their health and wellbeing. as spirit in body, you will reach the highest harmony with yourself if you honor the physical as well as the spiritual. balance between the two can be achieved by focusing your attention on the balance point.
you will be spirit-only again. there is no hurry. you can accomplish things in-body that cannot be done as spirit-only. savor this experience. treasure it. enjoy the love, the joy and the giddiness as you honor the anger, the frustration and the sadness. these in-body experiences serve you. you need them.
connect with the earth through your physical form. honor the physical all around you. invite spirit to join you here, in your body, on the earth. embrace the duality that is your unique form at this time in this place. enjoy."
thank you, millie.
Monday, February 8, 2010
your authentic self
hi mil, what's the topic for today?
"mindfullness. awareness. living your authentic life as your authentic self."
millie shows me a parade of human figures walking single-file, holding balloons that float above their heads. the balloons are also human-shaped. the walking figures seem heavy, empty, robotic. the balloons are lighter than air, with painted smiles, but also seem empty.
"you are afraid to fully inhabit your body, your life. many of you are simply skimming the surface of your life, afraid of the puzzle that is you, that you have come here to solve."
I have a strong sense that, while we normally trudge slowly up the steep steep slope of self-enlightenment, millie is here to build us a stairway.
"an escalator, if you let me." (said with no trace of ego)
"you resist fully inhabiting yourself for the same reason you don't clean out the garage, or the basement, or the attic. it looks like hard work. it's a little dark and scary. you might find something that upsets you. you don't know how to start. you aren't sure what to do with all that stuff.
it will be easier than you think. when you hold your soul 'stuff' up to the light, it transforms. you don't need to decide whether to keep it, toss it, give it away -- it's yours. you don't need to re-box it and re-store it, it has changed into something much lighter, something that helps you rather than weighing you down. it becomes an asset. a treasure.
the best thing you can do for yourself is look at your 'stuff.' make room for you inside your life. transform the dark corners into livable space. climb into your body and engage with life. move through your life with purpose and intention. really feel what it's like to be you. you are beautiful and wonderful and cool. treat yourself, and every other being on the planet, with reverence and love."
yowza, millie. if you're not careful, people are going to start making little gold figurines of you and praying to them!
"mindfullness. awareness. living your authentic life as your authentic self."
millie shows me a parade of human figures walking single-file, holding balloons that float above their heads. the balloons are also human-shaped. the walking figures seem heavy, empty, robotic. the balloons are lighter than air, with painted smiles, but also seem empty.
"you are afraid to fully inhabit your body, your life. many of you are simply skimming the surface of your life, afraid of the puzzle that is you, that you have come here to solve."
I have a strong sense that, while we normally trudge slowly up the steep steep slope of self-enlightenment, millie is here to build us a stairway.
"an escalator, if you let me." (said with no trace of ego)
"you resist fully inhabiting yourself for the same reason you don't clean out the garage, or the basement, or the attic. it looks like hard work. it's a little dark and scary. you might find something that upsets you. you don't know how to start. you aren't sure what to do with all that stuff.
it will be easier than you think. when you hold your soul 'stuff' up to the light, it transforms. you don't need to decide whether to keep it, toss it, give it away -- it's yours. you don't need to re-box it and re-store it, it has changed into something much lighter, something that helps you rather than weighing you down. it becomes an asset. a treasure.
the best thing you can do for yourself is look at your 'stuff.' make room for you inside your life. transform the dark corners into livable space. climb into your body and engage with life. move through your life with purpose and intention. really feel what it's like to be you. you are beautiful and wonderful and cool. treat yourself, and every other being on the planet, with reverence and love."
yowza, millie. if you're not careful, people are going to start making little gold figurines of you and praying to them!
Saturday, February 6, 2010
raise your vibration
today's message is closely related to the love message. it had the same kind of tenor to it, I believe millie is trying to clarify and expand on the information.
she shows me a vivid picture of a human with slots in their shoulders, and hanging from the slots are VERY heavy boxes of all sizes, each with a custom metal holder that fits precisely into the slots on the shoulders.
this is a complex message about our baggage. we have widely varied and customized baggage. each of us carries our own particular brand/ style/ type/ amount of baggage, and *we* are the ones who customize it. we choose it carefully and we make sure that it is exactly *our* kind of baggage, the kind that fits into our particular slots. and man-o-man is it ever heavy.
she shows me the human divesting themselves of the many, many boxes and containers. the human is becoming lighter and lighter, almost floating when the baggage has all been set down. that seems fairly straightforward.
"set down your baggage! you don't need it. you don't need to examine it, you don't even need to know what it is, just set it down and walk away.
raise your vibration, let the heavy stuff go. filter everything through love goggles, through fun glasses. *look* for laughter! feel how that changes your vibration. it is possible to do this all the time. it just takes practice.
what makes you happy? it is individual. what is fun for me (hunting small furry animals and laying in the sun) may not be fun for you. find your own happiness.
humans usually look at the dark side of things and match their vibration to it. you are trained to do that. it feels right because it is so habitual. deeply ingrained.
as you become more aware, as you begin to hear your spirit, it doesn't feel good to lower your vibration. it makes you uncomfortable. you don't have to do it, just because you always have. you don't have to do it because the ones you love do it.
even though there is sadness and strife in the world, you don't have to match it to care about it. you can maintain your vibration, which ultimately will be healing for the world.
vibrate at *you.* vibrate at fun and laughter and enthusiasm and love. share your vibration with the world. let it encourage others to do the same.
heal yourself, heal the world."
she shows me a vivid picture of a human with slots in their shoulders, and hanging from the slots are VERY heavy boxes of all sizes, each with a custom metal holder that fits precisely into the slots on the shoulders.
this is a complex message about our baggage. we have widely varied and customized baggage. each of us carries our own particular brand/ style/ type/ amount of baggage, and *we* are the ones who customize it. we choose it carefully and we make sure that it is exactly *our* kind of baggage, the kind that fits into our particular slots. and man-o-man is it ever heavy.
she shows me the human divesting themselves of the many, many boxes and containers. the human is becoming lighter and lighter, almost floating when the baggage has all been set down. that seems fairly straightforward.
"set down your baggage! you don't need it. you don't need to examine it, you don't even need to know what it is, just set it down and walk away.
raise your vibration, let the heavy stuff go. filter everything through love goggles, through fun glasses. *look* for laughter! feel how that changes your vibration. it is possible to do this all the time. it just takes practice.
what makes you happy? it is individual. what is fun for me (hunting small furry animals and laying in the sun) may not be fun for you. find your own happiness.
humans usually look at the dark side of things and match their vibration to it. you are trained to do that. it feels right because it is so habitual. deeply ingrained.
as you become more aware, as you begin to hear your spirit, it doesn't feel good to lower your vibration. it makes you uncomfortable. you don't have to do it, just because you always have. you don't have to do it because the ones you love do it.
even though there is sadness and strife in the world, you don't have to match it to care about it. you can maintain your vibration, which ultimately will be healing for the world.
vibrate at *you.* vibrate at fun and laughter and enthusiasm and love. share your vibration with the world. let it encourage others to do the same.
heal yourself, heal the world."
Friday, February 5, 2010
love, part 2
when I walked in the clinic today, millie was sitting in a sun spot on my desk, waiting.
"you are doing great. you understand this better than you think. relax into this feeling."
when I feel I am not 'getting' it, I tend to freeze up. it's one of my things. millie lay down in the sun on my desk and waited for me to un-clench. we sat in silence until my thoughts wandered to how nice the sun felt on my arm. then she spoke
"that is the feeling. without the physical warmth, of course, but feel the energy, the vibration of the sun. it is everywhere, in the air, in your body, in my body. you don't have to search for it, it is just there. that's how the love field is."
millie moved to the window, which always gives me some hope that I may be close to 'getting' it. I am making this harder for myself than it needs to be. as I sat here in the sunshine, I wondered, what is the difference between sunshine and love?
"you do not have to 'deserve' sunshine, you just accept that it is there, equally and everywhere, for everyone. you enjoy it, you use it, you might take it for granted, but you are always aware of its presence. love is the same. you don't need to deserve it, it just is.
enjoy the love, just as you do the sunshine. stretch out in it, revel in it, soak it up. it is there for you, for everyone. there is no need to earn it, no need to worry, no sense in wondering whether you deserve it. just enjoy it, feel it just by turning your thoughts to it. it is freely available everywhere, to everyone.
for now, practice thinking of the sunshine as love. experiment with the idea that you don't have to do anything or be anything to be worthy of all the love in the universe.
breathe it in, soak it up."
thanks, millie.
"you are doing great. you understand this better than you think. relax into this feeling."
when I feel I am not 'getting' it, I tend to freeze up. it's one of my things. millie lay down in the sun on my desk and waited for me to un-clench. we sat in silence until my thoughts wandered to how nice the sun felt on my arm. then she spoke
"that is the feeling. without the physical warmth, of course, but feel the energy, the vibration of the sun. it is everywhere, in the air, in your body, in my body. you don't have to search for it, it is just there. that's how the love field is."
millie moved to the window, which always gives me some hope that I may be close to 'getting' it. I am making this harder for myself than it needs to be. as I sat here in the sunshine, I wondered, what is the difference between sunshine and love?
"you do not have to 'deserve' sunshine, you just accept that it is there, equally and everywhere, for everyone. you enjoy it, you use it, you might take it for granted, but you are always aware of its presence. love is the same. you don't need to deserve it, it just is.
enjoy the love, just as you do the sunshine. stretch out in it, revel in it, soak it up. it is there for you, for everyone. there is no need to earn it, no need to worry, no sense in wondering whether you deserve it. just enjoy it, feel it just by turning your thoughts to it. it is freely available everywhere, to everyone.
for now, practice thinking of the sunshine as love. experiment with the idea that you don't have to do anything or be anything to be worthy of all the love in the universe.
breathe it in, soak it up."
thanks, millie.
love
wow. this was the most difficult topic for me so far, because it ran up against some of *my* stuff. it really is a simple concept, it was just hard for me personally. so, here's what I've learned from millie in the past two days.
"there is a love field that pervades and permeates the earth and the space around it. this love field is always available to you if you reach out and touch it with your mind or heart. the connection is more direct if you reach out with your heart, but sometimes it is easier to start with your mind, not so overwhelming."
millie showed me the two of us as two threads in an infinite blanket, connected to each other and to everyone else, out to infinity. she had me zoom out to see the whole picture, and this blanket of love is everywhere. 'love field' is the best I could do to describe what she sends me when she is addressing this topic.
"the love field is the connection between all things. animals live in fairly close contact with and awareness of the love field. humans experience the love field through their animals. that is why it feels so good, so right, to love and be loved by an animal. it puts you in direct contact with all the love in the universe.
this is our gift. this is our job, our function, to keep you connected until you rediscover how to connect yourself.
that isn't exactly right, you don't need to connect, you already are connected. it takes but a tiny shift in your awareness to realize the everythingness of the love field."
as I mentioned, it took me two days to 'get' this message from millie. there was a lot of back and forth from the desk to the window, and a lot of laying on my chest. at this point, I was trying to jot down some notes about what I thought I understood about what she was sending me. she lay down on my notepad and told me
"just feel it. just feel it."
so I sat. we sat together. still not clear, so she continued
"this field is the fabric of life, and more. it is energy. it is vibration. it is connection. it is the 'one' we are all a part of.
bringing your awareness to it will expand your consciousness. it will bring the infinite to the now. it is not a thing you need to search for. it is not a place you need to find. it is in you, it is everywhere."
I asked her how to access this feeling, this field.
"think of the love you have with your animals, so natural, so automatic. climb inside of that love. become it. be it. you are there. your awareness expands from the animal to the universe of love. there is no difference, no demarcation, no distinction, it just continues on."
at this point, I had spent the better part of the day not-quite-getting the substance of millie's message. I was tired and discouraged, but one more piece came through.
"much of the time, when you think of 'love' in relation to another, you are thinking of that emotion as applied to your *idea* of them. the normal human definition of love is small and incomplete. love is much larger than you realize. and you are immersed in it. completely. constantly."
.....to be continued....
"there is a love field that pervades and permeates the earth and the space around it. this love field is always available to you if you reach out and touch it with your mind or heart. the connection is more direct if you reach out with your heart, but sometimes it is easier to start with your mind, not so overwhelming."
millie showed me the two of us as two threads in an infinite blanket, connected to each other and to everyone else, out to infinity. she had me zoom out to see the whole picture, and this blanket of love is everywhere. 'love field' is the best I could do to describe what she sends me when she is addressing this topic.
"the love field is the connection between all things. animals live in fairly close contact with and awareness of the love field. humans experience the love field through their animals. that is why it feels so good, so right, to love and be loved by an animal. it puts you in direct contact with all the love in the universe.
this is our gift. this is our job, our function, to keep you connected until you rediscover how to connect yourself.
that isn't exactly right, you don't need to connect, you already are connected. it takes but a tiny shift in your awareness to realize the everythingness of the love field."
as I mentioned, it took me two days to 'get' this message from millie. there was a lot of back and forth from the desk to the window, and a lot of laying on my chest. at this point, I was trying to jot down some notes about what I thought I understood about what she was sending me. she lay down on my notepad and told me
"just feel it. just feel it."
so I sat. we sat together. still not clear, so she continued
"this field is the fabric of life, and more. it is energy. it is vibration. it is connection. it is the 'one' we are all a part of.
bringing your awareness to it will expand your consciousness. it will bring the infinite to the now. it is not a thing you need to search for. it is not a place you need to find. it is in you, it is everywhere."
I asked her how to access this feeling, this field.
"think of the love you have with your animals, so natural, so automatic. climb inside of that love. become it. be it. you are there. your awareness expands from the animal to the universe of love. there is no difference, no demarcation, no distinction, it just continues on."
at this point, I had spent the better part of the day not-quite-getting the substance of millie's message. I was tired and discouraged, but one more piece came through.
"much of the time, when you think of 'love' in relation to another, you are thinking of that emotion as applied to your *idea* of them. the normal human definition of love is small and incomplete. love is much larger than you realize. and you are immersed in it. completely. constantly."
.....to be continued....
feedback
a friend wrote to me about her experience with millie's advice. she had something upsetting happen to her, and she kept repeating her new mantra about not giving the situation any more energy. but it took a lot of her energy to focus on not giving the situation any of her energy, and it backfired because by doing that she was actually giving it *more* energy.
then she made herself go outside and focus on finding something pretty to enjoy, and that worked!
she learned that focusing on not focusing on bad things didn't work for her, she simply needs to focus instead on something good. it was, in her words, "a complete head shift."
and that's what millie meant. =)
what makes *your* soul dance?
then she made herself go outside and focus on finding something pretty to enjoy, and that worked!
she learned that focusing on not focusing on bad things didn't work for her, she simply needs to focus instead on something good. it was, in her words, "a complete head shift."
and that's what millie meant. =)
what makes *your* soul dance?
Thursday, February 4, 2010
reception & broadcasting
"humans are designed to be excellent receptors."
millie shows me something that feels like an antenna, but is shaped like a vessel, and is made of gold, which translates to high quality.
"you all do it, you just don't do it consciously. remember the 'vibe' you got from that waiter who seemed perfectly friendly on the surface, but you just knew somehow they were irritated? that's reception. what about the many times your phone has rung and you knew who was calling before you looked? that's reception. the gut feeling you have about someone when you meet them? reception. everyone does it, animals and humans. the time your normally friendly dog barked at the delivery guy? reception.
*trust* it. it has always worked for you, whether you were aware of it or not. becoming more aware will help to guide you. be conscious of that little voice in your head, that feeling in your gut, it will not lie to you."
I asked millie if this was in response to my friend's question about animal communication, or about my own thoughts when she talked about evil people yesterday. she said
"both."
so, if we aren't meant to interact with disturbed or evil people, this will help us to know to avoid them?
"exactly."
what about broadcasting?
"humans are also excellent broadcasters. you are very loud, in fact. all of us, animals and people alike, are constantly broadcasting our energy signature -- it's like an energetic fingerprint, very distinctive -- that is what we 'read' when we receive information about someone.
humans also loudly broadcast their thoughts and emotions. that is why it is somewhat difficult for you to hear the animals. we are not so loud. to hear us, you must quiet yourself first."
this takes practice, I'm guessing.
"yes. but you can all learn to do it."
she walked away. I think I've got it. thank you, mil.
millie shows me something that feels like an antenna, but is shaped like a vessel, and is made of gold, which translates to high quality.
"you all do it, you just don't do it consciously. remember the 'vibe' you got from that waiter who seemed perfectly friendly on the surface, but you just knew somehow they were irritated? that's reception. what about the many times your phone has rung and you knew who was calling before you looked? that's reception. the gut feeling you have about someone when you meet them? reception. everyone does it, animals and humans. the time your normally friendly dog barked at the delivery guy? reception.
*trust* it. it has always worked for you, whether you were aware of it or not. becoming more aware will help to guide you. be conscious of that little voice in your head, that feeling in your gut, it will not lie to you."
I asked millie if this was in response to my friend's question about animal communication, or about my own thoughts when she talked about evil people yesterday. she said
"both."
so, if we aren't meant to interact with disturbed or evil people, this will help us to know to avoid them?
"exactly."
what about broadcasting?
"humans are also excellent broadcasters. you are very loud, in fact. all of us, animals and people alike, are constantly broadcasting our energy signature -- it's like an energetic fingerprint, very distinctive -- that is what we 'read' when we receive information about someone.
humans also loudly broadcast their thoughts and emotions. that is why it is somewhat difficult for you to hear the animals. we are not so loud. to hear us, you must quiet yourself first."
this takes practice, I'm guessing.
"yes. but you can all learn to do it."
she walked away. I think I've got it. thank you, mil.
judgment
"judgment is also based in expectation, in a certain picture of how things should be, how people should act. when you let go of expectation, you let go of judgment.
everyone is walking their path, doing their thing, being themselves, just like you are. let them. you are all here with different life plans, different lessons - give each other the space to learn them.
the actions of others are generally not personal to you unless you make them so. you can choose not to make them so. your own actions are generally motivated by your internal structure - the way you move through your life, meeting your needs as well as you can. others are doing the same.
there are humans on the planet who are chronically unpleasant, or troubled, or evil. that has to do with the lessons they are here to learn, with the soul contracts they have made in order to move through their experience here according to their higher plan. most of them have no contract or agreement with you, and their effect on your life is fleeting and superficial. let it be fleeting. let it be superficial.
don't internalize the unpleasantness of others. that is their path."
I flinched about the word 'evil.' millie says that part of free will is the ability to choose dark over light. and some do. and that is okay.
"everything is possible, all the time. we have all experimented with dark and light. that is how we know our preference."
everyone is walking their path, doing their thing, being themselves, just like you are. let them. you are all here with different life plans, different lessons - give each other the space to learn them.
the actions of others are generally not personal to you unless you make them so. you can choose not to make them so. your own actions are generally motivated by your internal structure - the way you move through your life, meeting your needs as well as you can. others are doing the same.
there are humans on the planet who are chronically unpleasant, or troubled, or evil. that has to do with the lessons they are here to learn, with the soul contracts they have made in order to move through their experience here according to their higher plan. most of them have no contract or agreement with you, and their effect on your life is fleeting and superficial. let it be fleeting. let it be superficial.
don't internalize the unpleasantness of others. that is their path."
I flinched about the word 'evil.' millie says that part of free will is the ability to choose dark over light. and some do. and that is okay.
"everything is possible, all the time. we have all experimented with dark and light. that is how we know our preference."
clarification
the ideas and feelings come from millie. the words (most of them) are my interpretation, my attempt to explain what she sends me. she's pretty good about letting me know when my words don't match her ideas.
Wednesday, February 3, 2010
is this for real?
someone asked me yesterday if I was sure 'this stuff' was coming from millie, how did I know it wasn't coming from me. it's hard to explain how I know, exactly, it's just that I know my thoughts and I am familiar with myself, and I don't *think* like this. it feels like I just open a space in my head and and the words come in, or flow out, I guess is a better way to say it.
and then there's the physical interaction. millie climbs on my chest to let me know she has something to say. she sits on the desk, in front of the computer, while I am receiving the message. she moves to the window when she thinks I've 'got it' - the whole concept, the big picture. she comes back to the desk if I need a little clarification or help. I don't always get it right the first time. then she goes away, usually to her heated bed, when she's finished.
yes, I am sure this is coming from the cat. call me crazy, I don't care, millie is teaching me to speak my truth by helping her speak hers.
and then there's the physical interaction. millie climbs on my chest to let me know she has something to say. she sits on the desk, in front of the computer, while I am receiving the message. she moves to the window when she thinks I've 'got it' - the whole concept, the big picture. she comes back to the desk if I need a little clarification or help. I don't always get it right the first time. then she goes away, usually to her heated bed, when she's finished.
yes, I am sure this is coming from the cat. call me crazy, I don't care, millie is teaching me to speak my truth by helping her speak hers.
permission
"walk in forgiveness. walk in love. annoyance is based in expectation. release your expectations of others. if you expect nothing in particular, then you will never be surprised, you will never be disappointed.
allow others to be themselves. if their behavior does not suit you, meet them with honesty.
but let there be love behind your honesty. love for yourself and others. love yourself enough to set boundaries you are comfortable with. love others enough to allow them permission to be themselves. if their behavior requires them to remain outside of your boundaries, so be it. this can be a negotiation in love. it does not need to be anything darker.
release the expectations. allow the love. give permission. treat every encounter with another as the adventure it rightfully is. be an explorer. be brave. be love."
incredible cat. thank you, millie.
allow others to be themselves. if their behavior does not suit you, meet them with honesty.
but let there be love behind your honesty. love for yourself and others. love yourself enough to set boundaries you are comfortable with. love others enough to allow them permission to be themselves. if their behavior requires them to remain outside of your boundaries, so be it. this can be a negotiation in love. it does not need to be anything darker.
release the expectations. allow the love. give permission. treat every encounter with another as the adventure it rightfully is. be an explorer. be brave. be love."
incredible cat. thank you, millie.
Tuesday, February 2, 2010
what makes your soul dance?
"there are likely many things that make your soul dance. early mist rising from the water. fresh snow on the branches. a dramatic thunder and lightning storm. the way your dog stretches when she sees you. your cat's purr. small things and large things, they are all around you.
humans tend to focus on the things that bring you down, the things that stress you out or make you sad. there are many more moments of joy, the only thing lacking is your attention and focus.
give less attention to the moments that bring you down. let them pass without contributing your energy.
focus on the moments that make your soul dance!"
thank you, millie.
humans tend to focus on the things that bring you down, the things that stress you out or make you sad. there are many more moments of joy, the only thing lacking is your attention and focus.
give less attention to the moments that bring you down. let them pass without contributing your energy.
focus on the moments that make your soul dance!"
thank you, millie.
Monday, February 1, 2010
expectations
more of millie's answer to the question about relationships and change.
"you are the only one who can meet your needs. if someone else appears to be meeting your needs, it is because your needs intersect.
love without expectation. walk your path in love and be confident that you can meet your own needs.
expecting others to do a certain thing, act a certain way, be or think a certain way is a pathway to pain. expectations are of the dark, not of the light.
know that each interaction with another is an expression of a gift, an offer of love. let that be your river, a river of gifts and love. float and be free.
when you run into an expectation that someone has thrown in your path, give what you are willing, love if you are able, float through or fly over the expectation as if it isn't really there, because it isn't.
there is no power in the expectations of others apart from what you give them."
thank you, millie.
"you are the only one who can meet your needs. if someone else appears to be meeting your needs, it is because your needs intersect.
love without expectation. walk your path in love and be confident that you can meet your own needs.
expecting others to do a certain thing, act a certain way, be or think a certain way is a pathway to pain. expectations are of the dark, not of the light.
know that each interaction with another is an expression of a gift, an offer of love. let that be your river, a river of gifts and love. float and be free.
when you run into an expectation that someone has thrown in your path, give what you are willing, love if you are able, float through or fly over the expectation as if it isn't really there, because it isn't.
there is no power in the expectations of others apart from what you give them."
thank you, millie.
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