love, part 2

when I walked in the clinic today, millie was sitting in a sun spot on my desk, waiting.


"you are doing great.  you understand this better than you think.  relax into this feeling."

when I feel I am not 'getting' it, I tend to freeze up.  it's one of my things.  millie lay down in the sun on my desk and waited for me to un-clench.  we sat in silence until my thoughts wandered to how nice the sun felt on my arm.  then she spoke

"that is the feeling.  without the physical warmth, of course, but feel the energy, the vibration of the sun.  it is everywhere, in the air, in your body, in my body.  you don't have to search for it, it is just there.  that's how the love field is."

millie moved to the window, which always gives me some hope that I may be close to 'getting' it.  I am making this harder for myself than it needs to be.  as I sat here in the sunshine, I wondered, what is the difference between sunshine and love?

"you do not have to 'deserve' sunshine, you just accept that it is there, equally and everywhere, for everyone.  you enjoy it, you use it, you might take it for granted, but you are always aware of its presence.  love is the same.  you don't need to deserve it, it just is.  


enjoy the love, just as you do the sunshine.  stretch out in it, revel in it, soak it up.  it is there for you, for everyone.  there is no need to earn it, no need to worry, no sense in wondering whether you deserve it.  just enjoy it, feel it just by turning your thoughts to it.  it is freely available everywhere, to everyone. 


for now, practice thinking of the sunshine as love.  experiment with the idea that you don't have to do anything or be anything to be worthy of all the love in the universe.    


breathe it in, soak it up."


thanks, millie.

love

wow.  this was the most difficult topic for me so far, because it ran up against some of *my* stuff. it really is a simple concept, it was just hard for me personally.  so, here's what I've learned from millie in the past two days.

"there is a love field that pervades and permeates the earth and the space around it.  this love field is always available to you if you reach out and touch it with your mind or heart.  the connection is more direct if you reach out with your heart, but sometimes it is easier to start with your mind, not so overwhelming."

millie showed me the two of us as two threads in an infinite blanket, connected to each other and to everyone else, out to infinity.  she had me zoom out to see the whole picture, and this blanket of love is everywhere.  'love field' is the best I could do to describe what she sends me when she is addressing this topic.

"the love field is the connection between all things.  animals live in fairly close contact with and awareness of the love field.  humans experience the love field through their animals.  that is why it feels so good, so right, to love and be loved by an animal.  it puts you in direct contact with all the love in the universe.  


this is our gift.  this is our job, our function, to keep you connected until you rediscover how to connect yourself.


that isn't exactly right, you don't need to connect, you already are connected.  it takes but a tiny shift in your awareness to realize the everythingness of the love field."

as I mentioned, it took me two days to 'get' this message from millie.  there was a lot of back and forth from the desk to the window, and a lot of laying on my chest.  at this point, I was trying to jot down some notes about what I thought I understood about what she was sending me.  she lay down on my notepad and told me

"just feel it.  just feel it."

so I sat.  we sat together.  still not clear, so she continued


"this field is the fabric of life, and more.  it is energy.  it is vibration.  it is connection.  it is the 'one' we are all a part of.


bringing your awareness to it will expand your consciousness.  it will bring the infinite to the now.  it is not a thing you need to search for.  it is not a place you need to find.  it is in you, it is everywhere."

I asked her how to access this feeling, this field.

"think of the love you have with your animals, so natural, so automatic.  climb inside of that love.  become it.  be it.  you are there.  your awareness expands from the animal to the universe of love.  there is no difference, no demarcation, no distinction, it just continues on."

at this point, I had spent the better part of the day not-quite-getting the substance of millie's message.  I was tired and discouraged, but one more piece came through.

"much of the time, when you think of 'love' in relation to another, you are thinking of that emotion as applied to your *idea* of them.  the normal human definition of love is small and incomplete.  love is much larger than you realize.  and you are immersed in it.  completely.  constantly."

.....to be continued....

feedback

a friend wrote to me about her experience with millie's advice.  she had something upsetting happen to her, and she kept repeating her new mantra about not giving the situation any more energy.  but it took a lot of her energy to focus on not giving the situation any of her energy, and it backfired because by doing that she was actually giving it *more* energy.

then she made herself go outside and focus on finding something pretty to enjoy, and that worked!

she learned that focusing on not focusing on bad things didn't work for her, she simply needs to focus instead on something good.  it was, in her words, "a complete head shift."

and that's what millie meant.  =)

what makes *your* soul dance?