Sunday, January 31, 2010

change

a friend asked me today what millie thought about change.  specifically, change that accompanies a shift in vibrational energy between people.  this is millie's response.

"it is natural to seek out others who share your vibration.  it feels good.  it makes it easy to share physical and energetic space and experiences.  it makes us feel connected, all of us, animals too.


sometimes two beings go on sharing a similar vibration for a lifetime.  more often, though, one or both of them shift so that they are no longer so well-aligned.  this is normal too.  growth and change are normal.


perhaps you have noticed how it feels to try to change your vibration to match another.  it is uncomfortable.  it is not sustainable.  at some point, it becomes obvious that your vibrations are too far apart to be comfortable together.  this can cause emotional pain.  particularly when this is someone you love.  


it is possible to be with people of different vibrations, as long as you maintain your own.  the discomfort and pain come when you try to shift your own vibration to match another, if the difference is too great.  your energy is your own.  when you try to change the way it feels, it is confusing and unpleasant.


it is most comfortable to allow others permission to vibrate where they do.  to be who they are. where they are.  on their own path.  it is impossible to change someone else's vibration, but vibrating at your own true energy gives others permission to do the same.


not all relationships are meant to be life long.  people flow into and out of each other's lives according to their higher plans.  some people are in your life for the lesson they bring you.  learn it and move on.  change does not have any bearing on love.  it doesn't erase love, or make it invalid.  if you love someone and it is painful to be around them, changing the relationship, moving on, going with the flow does not negate the love.  even if the love itself changes, that doesn't erase the love that was.


remember the lessons:  live from your heart.  live in the moment.  go with the flow.  be true to yourself.  trust."

thank you, millie.


Saturday, January 30, 2010

trust

millie's brain to my fingers.

"go with the flow.  trust that everything happens exactly as it should.  trust that you had a plan for this life and that you are following it.  just trust.  


give yourself some credit!  know that you are finding or following your soul purpose.  know that you are exactly where you are supposed to be on your path.  give yourself permission to be.  to be you.  to be where you are.  to be going where you're going.  


do what you do.  love what you do.  do what you love.


let go of the need for control.  control is a fantasy.  there is no. such. thing.  you have free will and so does every other being on the planet.  that introduces more variables than you could ever imagine into every moment.  trying to control your life is like trying to control the weather.  it is laughable to think you can control anything, any situation, any action.


the need for control, the effort to achieve the impossible, causes a lot of strife in the world.


let it go."

she sends me a feeling like that song "don't worry, be happy."

millie, you are a treasure.  I am so honored to know you.

Friday, January 29, 2010

fear

it is somewhat intimidating to have a very eager cat waiting for me every morning with a new message for the blog.  probably this is one of the things I am supposed to learn from this... how to trust what I'm getting, that I don't need absolute silence and calm in order to do this, that I'm hearing her correctly under pressure and just write it.  I have a lot on my plate today, but millie is not in the mood to wait.

"much of what you do is motivated or shaped by fear.  fear of social consequences for doing or saying something that other humans might not agree with.  fear of ostracism, of not fitting in.  fear of persecution or harm for speaking truth.  many humans have died for speaking truth.  many humans have killed others for their ideas.  this fear is valid and real.  it is okay to feel fear.


this is a special time.  you can choose not to base your decisions in fear.  you can push through the fear and be yourself in spite of it.  many of you are learning this, or completing your learning of it, in this lifetime.


choose love.   choose the opposite of fear in every moment, every decision, with every choice you make.  be aware of your fear, make friends with it.  know it.  understand when it is pushing you and recognize that feeling.  and be kind to yourself when you move because of the push.  experiment with the idea that fear is not the end of everything, and the end of everything does not lie behind the fear."

wow, that sounds like a heck of an experiment.

thanks, millie.

Thursday, January 28, 2010

speak your truth

when I entered the building today, millie was waiting for me.  she is sitting on my desk purring as I type around her.


"truth is relative.  what is true for some is not true for all, and that is okay.  your job is to speak your own truth, whether or not it is true in that moment for anyone else.  your higher self is full of wisdom and you can access that.  when someone says something that seems true to you, how do you feel that?  how do you know it seems true?  does it vibrate a certain way in your body?  does it cause you to pause and think about it?  does it make you breathe a different way?


listen to yourself, pay attention to the signs your body gives you that mean you are on the right track.  the more you listen, the more you will hear.  the more you hear, the more complete your picture of YOUR truth becomes for you.


this is important.  it.  is.  okay.  to.  speak.  your.  truth.  in fact, it is imperative."

when I reached that last point, millie left my desk and went to sit in the window.  she says that is enough for now.  she emphasizes the importance of this message.

on a personal note, this is something I've been thinking about, struggling with for a while now. worrying about what others think about what I believe kind of stresses me out.  I really like the idea of everyone having their *own* truth, and that that is the way it is supposed to be.  I'm going to live with that for awhile and see how it shifts things for me.

thank you, millie cat.

Wednesday, January 27, 2010

how we learned to listen to millie

millie came to stay at the office, which suited her and we love having her here.  her role has changed slightly over the years.  at first, she was a greeter.  she would come out and say hi to almost everyone who walked through the door.  she would come into the exam room with some patients, talking up a storm and seemingly very insistent about telling us something.

being human, and rather caught up in our human-ness, we weren't very good about listening to her when she had something to say.  in fact, it's a little embarrassing to look back on how dismissive we were when she offered her input.  but one case changed all of that.

"I began to pay attention to the health of the animals who come here for diagnosis and treatment.  I found that I frequently know what is wrong with them before my colleagues do. 


one day, a woman came in with a very sick dog.  the woman was extremely upset, another doctor had refused to run diagnostic tests that she requested, and was arrogant about and dismissive of her gut feeling about what was wrong with her dog.  


our doctor examined the dog and was thinking the worst, cancer.  the dog was very, very sick. but I knew it wasn't cancer, and I knew how that diagnosis would crush the woman, so I clawed at the exam room door until they let me in.  I walked on the dog, so I could touch him with my paws and make sure that I was right before I said anything.  then I turned to the doctor and told her it wasn't as bad as she thought."

this was a few years ago, before I started really trying to 'hear' millie at work.  back then, when we knew millie had something to say we asked her questions and got yes or no answers via muscle testing.  my talent for 'hearing' her came into play through knowing or guessing which questions to ask.  here is how that conversation went:

millie, do you have something to say?  (this is how we start every muscle-testing conversation with her, and it is a standing joke in the office now, as she makes it very clear when she has something to tell us.)

"yes."

is it about this dog?

"yes."

does he have cancer?

"no."

really!?!?

"no."

is he very sick?

"yes."  (it was obvious that he was, but with muscle testing it's a good idea to throw in questions that you know the answers to along with the questions that you are looking for the answers to, in order to check to make sure you are getting accurate responses.)

is what he has treatable?

"yes."

is he going to die?

"no."

do we need to refer him for further diagnostics?

"yes."

millie was very sure that this dog did not have cancer and that what he had was treatable.  we had played this kind of 20-questions game with millie before about patients that she indicated she had information about, but the difference with this case is that we took a leap and actually *told* the client that our cat said her dog could be treated.

wow.  does that sound crazy, or what?

we believed, but hadn't actually discussed how or why we believed, that millie really did have a special talent when it came to understanding the inner workings of our patients.

we believed, but hadn't articulated, that we were getting good information when we asked millie questions.

without really thinking it through, or we probably never would have done it, we told this client that millie said her dog was going to be okay.  both the doctor and I had our doubts about that.  did I mention that this dog was really, really sick?  the client was very relieved to hear what millie thought, even though we qualified it with 'we could be wrong's and 'this isn't scientifically sound's.  she was in a much better frame of mind when she left the office than when she had arrived.

when we got the first referral report from the specialists, it said the xrays showed a large mass in the dog's lung.  we were sure that confirmed our suspicion of cancer.  the specialist thought so too, and they scheduled a surgery to biopsy the mass.

when we got the next referral report, it said the dog had a fungal infection, the mass had been removed successfully and he should be fine with long-term antibiotic therapy.

wow.

millie is sitting in front of me as I type this (good thing I've learned to type without looking) and she is purring.

"I like this story.  it was a good example of the kind of cooperative relationship I have developed with my colleagues.  I enjoy being here, being a part of the work that we do here.  I enjoy being treated as an equal, and having my thoughts considered when I make them known.


this is how it can be with animals.  we have a lot of wisdom to share, for those who listen.


my human friends are worried about putting this blog out there too widely.  they are worried what people will think, how it will affect the business.


I am not worried.  I know what I know.  this is a good thing.  this is truth."

as always, thank you, millie.

how millie came to be with us

when I walked in the door this morning, millie had more important things than blogging on her mind.  but immediately *after* breakfast, she informed me that today's topic is her story.  I told her ok, I will go ask the doctor to tell me the story again about how you came to her.  millie just looked at me.  oh, you want to tell your own story.

"yes."

okay.  tell me.

"I was living with a troubled family. they stopped feeding me.  I thought I might be walking away to die, it was cold and there were lots of coyotes and foxes.  something guided me to walk in a certain direction though.  when I got to the house, I was weak and starving and barely had the strength to crawl up on the front deck.  I think I slept a little, then a man was walking toward me and he picked me up and put me in the house.  it was warm inside.  I had a vague impression of other animals in the house, but no one felt dangerous, so I slept.  later the people came home and fed me.  I slept and slept for days, waking up to eat.  when I started to regain my strength, the other cats started asking me questions and pushing me to interact with them.  I had no answers to their questions, and I had no practice dealing with other cats, so I told them to stay away.  they were persistent, and I wasn't nice about telling them to leave me alone, I even suggested that they leave.  this went on for a while.  


I was content, the people were nice and I was getting plenty of good food.  the other cats were not behaving well, they didn't like my attitude and they expressed their displeasure by peeing all over the house.  this made the people unhappy.  


one day, the doctor brought me here to the office.  at first it was confusing, my sleep schedule was disrupted.  I soon decided that I really like it here, I enjoy meeting the people and some of the animals.  I still don't care for other cats, but I've learned to ignore them.  none of them stay very long.


at some point, it dawned on me that my new home is a healing center.  I am a healer, I have always been a healer.  what a perfect place for me to be!"

Tuesday, January 26, 2010

your animals are here for you

when I walked through the office door this morning, millie came running, clearly ready to blog.  as we had a busy morning scheduled, I had to apologize and ask her to wait.  she came back later and told me about today's blog.

millie wants you to know:

"your animals are here for you.  many of us chose to come as animals during this very interesting time, specifically to support you.  being human is difficult, it requires a lot of courage and spiritual energy, especially right now.  we are here for you, to love and support you, to guide you.  we have a lot of wisdom to share.  most of you can 'hear' us, but you aren't fully aware of it. trust the messages you get.  let us support and love you, it's why we're here."

I stopped here, and she said there was more to her message.

"really lean on us.  we are strong.  this is not a one-way caretaking agreement, we signed on to take care of you too.  let us."

talking to an animal is different than talking to a human.  it uses a different part of your brain.  instead of words, you get smells, feelings, ideas of things.  you have to trust a) that you aren't crazy and b) that you are interpreting the message correctly.  it takes a lot of trust.  and practice.  I have a feeling it is going to get easier, and that more people will become aware of the communication they have with their animals.

living in the moment, part 3

of course, when I shut down the computer yesterday, millie let me know that we hadn't *quite* captured her sentiments on living in the moment.  I took notes and promised her I would update her blog today.  so I am.

"if you stop throwing your energy into the past and the future, you will have more energy for now.  you will be living more in the moment with more energy for everything.  it will make love, tolerance and acceptance easier."

she finished with a very utopian picture/feeling (the main way I get my messages from her, most of the words are my interpretation of what she sends me) -- I interpreted the last bit as something like

"you can achieve world peace by living in the moment."  

that's a nice thought.

Monday, January 25, 2010

more about living in the moment

evidently, millie hadn't finished her thought about living in the moment when I blogged it. she climbed up on my lap and sat on my chest to let me know.

millie, do you have more to say?

"yes."

is it about the blog?

"yes."


is it about living from your heart?

"no."

about living in the moment?

"yes."


okay, what else would you like to say?

"living in the moment is a matter of bringing your awareness to now and keeping it here. now is really all there is. worrying about the future is silly and a waste of energy. the future isn't real, it is only possible. this is important to understand."


millie also let me know that she is pleased about her blog. she thinks it will be good practice for me, and she likes sharing her wisdom with people.



live in the moment

today is monday. all last week and over the weekend I managed to obsess about potential future problems. you can probably see where this is going. when I got to work I found that I wasn't the only one borrowing trouble from the future. as we discussed the future in a sort of dismal, pessimistic way, it being a monday and all, millie came out to talk to us. we all know now when millie is just moving around the office and when she has something to say.

millie, do you have something to tell us?

"yes."

is it about our conversation?

"yes."

do you want us to stop being so pessimistic?

"yes."

do you have any practical, specific advice for us on how to do that?

"live in the moment."

ah. of course. life is pretty amazing and magical when you bring your focus back to this moment. right here. right now.

thanks, mil.


live from the heart

last thursday millie came and sat on my chest while I was working. can't remember what I was doing exactly, but it was something incompatible with having a cat sit on your chest. millie and I have worked together for going on 4 years now. she helps balance the energy in the office, she weighs in with her opinion on some of our more difficult cases, she cheerleads when we do well, and she offers advice.


her main way to let me know that I am in need of her advice is to hop up on my lap and climb up the front of me so that she is laying on my chest, effectively ending my focus on work and claiming it for herself.


I have taken classes in animal communication, and I can do it, but I usually attempt it only when I have taken the time to ground myself and remove myself from the distractions of my life. work is far from my ideal space for animal communication. millie insists that I can do it, however, and she keeps trying to talk to me in spite of my painfully slow understanding.


on thursday, millie tried and tried to get through to me, through my distraction and my funk about life in general. finally, I 'heard' her. her words are in quotes:


"your sarcasm is a shield. you use it to protect yourself, but it also shuts you away. live from your heart. relate to others from your heart."


um, wow. okay. good advice, I am sure, but do you have any practical advice for me on how to achieve this?


"yes." 


would you mind sharing it with me?  (animals are SO literal!)


"regard the people the way you regard the animals. think of them the same way."


oh.


OH.


it's true, I offer a lot more compassion to the animals. even the ones I don't really enjoy being around get a considerable amount of love and compassion from me. respect. trust. lack of suspicion. tolerance. acceptance.


I immediately tried thinking of some of my least favorite people as though they were animals. it helped a lot. as animals, they are allowed to be exactly who they are, a product of their own individual lives and experiences, with no expectations from me. what a relief to be able to think of people that way. I still don't like them, but that's ok, I don't have to be around them.


that millie, she is one smart cat.

are you writing this down?

I was walking with my husband today, relating the latest message from millie, when he turned to me and asked,"are you writing all of this down?"

hence this blog.


intro

millie is a cat.

I am a human.

this blog is millie's, to share her amazing wisdom with others, however it must go through me in order to get here (millie doesn't type) and so we are limited by my ability to"get" her messages, and also by my interpretive skills.

I will do my best to translate accurately and to transmit the love effectively.

so here we go...