love, part 2

when I walked in the clinic today, millie was sitting in a sun spot on my desk, waiting.


"you are doing great.  you understand this better than you think.  relax into this feeling."

when I feel I am not 'getting' it, I tend to freeze up.  it's one of my things.  millie lay down in the sun on my desk and waited for me to un-clench.  we sat in silence until my thoughts wandered to how nice the sun felt on my arm.  then she spoke

"that is the feeling.  without the physical warmth, of course, but feel the energy, the vibration of the sun.  it is everywhere, in the air, in your body, in my body.  you don't have to search for it, it is just there.  that's how the love field is."

millie moved to the window, which always gives me some hope that I may be close to 'getting' it.  I am making this harder for myself than it needs to be.  as I sat here in the sunshine, I wondered, what is the difference between sunshine and love?

"you do not have to 'deserve' sunshine, you just accept that it is there, equally and everywhere, for everyone.  you enjoy it, you use it, you might take it for granted, but you are always aware of its presence.  love is the same.  you don't need to deserve it, it just is.  


enjoy the love, just as you do the sunshine.  stretch out in it, revel in it, soak it up.  it is there for you, for everyone.  there is no need to earn it, no need to worry, no sense in wondering whether you deserve it.  just enjoy it, feel it just by turning your thoughts to it.  it is freely available everywhere, to everyone. 


for now, practice thinking of the sunshine as love.  experiment with the idea that you don't have to do anything or be anything to be worthy of all the love in the universe.    


breathe it in, soak it up."


thanks, millie.

love

wow.  this was the most difficult topic for me so far, because it ran up against some of *my* stuff. it really is a simple concept, it was just hard for me personally.  so, here's what I've learned from millie in the past two days.

"there is a love field that pervades and permeates the earth and the space around it.  this love field is always available to you if you reach out and touch it with your mind or heart.  the connection is more direct if you reach out with your heart, but sometimes it is easier to start with your mind, not so overwhelming."

millie showed me the two of us as two threads in an infinite blanket, connected to each other and to everyone else, out to infinity.  she had me zoom out to see the whole picture, and this blanket of love is everywhere.  'love field' is the best I could do to describe what she sends me when she is addressing this topic.

"the love field is the connection between all things.  animals live in fairly close contact with and awareness of the love field.  humans experience the love field through their animals.  that is why it feels so good, so right, to love and be loved by an animal.  it puts you in direct contact with all the love in the universe.  


this is our gift.  this is our job, our function, to keep you connected until you rediscover how to connect yourself.


that isn't exactly right, you don't need to connect, you already are connected.  it takes but a tiny shift in your awareness to realize the everythingness of the love field."

as I mentioned, it took me two days to 'get' this message from millie.  there was a lot of back and forth from the desk to the window, and a lot of laying on my chest.  at this point, I was trying to jot down some notes about what I thought I understood about what she was sending me.  she lay down on my notepad and told me

"just feel it.  just feel it."

so I sat.  we sat together.  still not clear, so she continued


"this field is the fabric of life, and more.  it is energy.  it is vibration.  it is connection.  it is the 'one' we are all a part of.


bringing your awareness to it will expand your consciousness.  it will bring the infinite to the now.  it is not a thing you need to search for.  it is not a place you need to find.  it is in you, it is everywhere."

I asked her how to access this feeling, this field.

"think of the love you have with your animals, so natural, so automatic.  climb inside of that love.  become it.  be it.  you are there.  your awareness expands from the animal to the universe of love.  there is no difference, no demarcation, no distinction, it just continues on."

at this point, I had spent the better part of the day not-quite-getting the substance of millie's message.  I was tired and discouraged, but one more piece came through.

"much of the time, when you think of 'love' in relation to another, you are thinking of that emotion as applied to your *idea* of them.  the normal human definition of love is small and incomplete.  love is much larger than you realize.  and you are immersed in it.  completely.  constantly."

.....to be continued....

feedback

a friend wrote to me about her experience with millie's advice.  she had something upsetting happen to her, and she kept repeating her new mantra about not giving the situation any more energy.  but it took a lot of her energy to focus on not giving the situation any of her energy, and it backfired because by doing that she was actually giving it *more* energy.

then she made herself go outside and focus on finding something pretty to enjoy, and that worked!

she learned that focusing on not focusing on bad things didn't work for her, she simply needs to focus instead on something good.  it was, in her words, "a complete head shift."

and that's what millie meant.  =)

what makes *your* soul dance?

reception & broadcasting

"humans are designed to be excellent receptors."

millie shows me something that feels like an antenna, but is shaped like a vessel, and is made of gold, which translates to high quality.


"you all do it, you just don't do it consciously.  remember the 'vibe' you got from that waiter who seemed perfectly friendly on the surface, but you just knew somehow they were irritated?  that's reception.  what about the many times your phone has rung and you knew who was calling before you looked?  that's reception.  the gut feeling you have about someone when you meet them?  reception.  everyone does it, animals and humans.  the time your normally friendly dog barked at the delivery guy?  reception.


*trust* it.  it has always worked for you, whether you were aware of it or not.  becoming more aware will help to guide you.  be conscious of that little voice in your head, that feeling in your gut, it will not lie to you."

I asked millie if this was in response to my friend's question about animal communication, or about my own thoughts when she talked about evil people yesterday.  she said

"both."

so, if we aren't meant to interact with disturbed or evil people, this will help us to know to avoid them?

"exactly."

what about broadcasting?


"humans are also excellent broadcasters.  you are very loud, in fact.  all of us, animals and people alike, are constantly broadcasting our energy signature -- it's like an energetic fingerprint, very distinctive -- that is what we 'read' when we receive information about someone.


humans also loudly broadcast their thoughts and emotions.  that is why it is somewhat difficult for you to hear the animals.  we are not so loud.  to hear us, you must quiet yourself first."

this takes practice, I'm guessing.

"yes.  but you can all learn to do it."

she walked away.  I think I've got it.  thank you, mil.

judgment

"judgment is also based in expectation, in a certain picture of how things should be, how people should act.  when you let go of expectation, you let go of judgment.


everyone is walking their path, doing their thing, being themselves, just like you are.  let them.  you are all here with different life plans, different lessons - give each other the space to learn them.


the actions of others are generally not personal to you unless you make them so.  you can choose not to make them so.  your own actions are generally motivated by your internal structure - the way you move through your life, meeting your needs as well as you can.  others are doing the same.


there are humans on the planet who are chronically unpleasant, or troubled, or evil.  that has to do with the lessons they are here to learn, with the soul contracts they have made in order to move through their experience here according to their higher plan.  most of them have no contract or agreement with you, and their effect on your life is fleeting and superficial.  let it be fleeting.  let it be superficial.  


don't internalize the unpleasantness of others.  that is their path."


I flinched about the word 'evil.'  millie says that part of free will is the ability to choose dark over light.  and some do.  and that is okay.

"everything is possible, all the time.  we have all experimented with dark and light.  that is how  we know our preference."

clarification

the ideas and feelings come from millie.  the words (most of them) are my interpretation, my attempt to explain what she sends me.  she's pretty good about letting me know when my words don't match her ideas.

is this for real?

someone asked me yesterday if I was sure 'this stuff' was coming from millie, how did I know it wasn't coming from me.  it's hard to explain how I know, exactly, it's just that I know my thoughts and I am familiar with myself, and I don't *think* like this.  it feels like I just open a space in my head and and the words come in, or flow out, I guess is a better way to say it.

and then there's the physical interaction.  millie climbs on my chest to let me know she has something to say.  she sits on the desk, in front of the computer, while I am receiving the message.  she moves to the window when she thinks I've 'got it' - the whole concept, the big picture.  she comes back to the desk if I need a little clarification or help.  I don't always get it right the first time.  then she goes away, usually to her heated bed, when she's finished.

yes, I am sure this is coming from the cat.  call me crazy, I don't care, millie is teaching me to speak my truth by helping her speak hers.