jump off the boat

I am still feeling somewhat overwhelmed by life these days, by the demands on my time and my apparent inability to make time for me.  I asked millie for help.  she shows me a small sailboat being tossed and buffeted by large white-capped waves in a somewhat stormy sea.  it's a pretty accurate portrayal of how I'm feeling.

the boat is me?

"you are on the boat."

why is the water so rough?

"because you are fighting it.  the boat represents the 'stuff' that humans construct around them to separate themselves from the flow.  the water is flow.  it can be gentle and easy or it can be rough, your choice."

she shows me dashing about on the sailboat, trimming sails, tying off lines, turning the rudder this way and that way, frantically trying to stay afloat and keep the boat headed where I want to go, as the waves crash into it and push it off course.  

all of the tasks, all of the things that I think I must do on the boat, those are all an illusion?

"yes."

what do I do?  if I stop sailing, won't I drown?

"you can't drown.  you and the water are the same.  you are part of the flow."

so what do I do?

"jump off the boat.  jump into the water."

she shows me swimming underwater with no apparent need to breathe, and then floating on the surface, completely relaxed.  


I am afraid of the water, I am afraid to leave the boat.  how do I overcome that fear?

"live in the moment.  stop living for the next.  be present now.  keep your focus now.  the flow will happen."

and I won't need the boat?

"correct."

thank you, millie.

just keep swimming

it's been a wild ride the past couple of weeks.  as I sat down to talk to millie, there was no specific question on my mind, but I had kind of a what-the-heck-is-going-on feeling.  the first image millie sent me was of me walking my path, but I wasn't viewing it from a normal perspective, she was showing it to me from underneath.  I was watching my footfalls from beneath the path, looking up at the soles of my feet.


"things are a little topsy-turvy right now.  you may feel that you have lost your perspective, or that things have really changed in your world.  you may feel disoriented."

yep, that about sums it up.

then she shows me walking around the outside of a hollow ball, like a huge beach ball.  as I circumnavigated the ball, I was upside down for a while, but then right side up again.  as she showed me this, she sent me feelings of trust and optimism and something harder to describe, but sort of like the mantra of that little blue fish in finding nemo... 'just keep swimming, just keep swimming...'


"follow your path.  trust that if you keep walking your path, things will eventually work out.  know that life is change, and by moving through your world, you will experience change.  that's okay.  it is normal.  keep walking your path and eventually things will even out again.  only to shift again in the future.  that's how it works.  trust that your path is the right place for you, no matter where it leads."

thank you, millie.

flow

millie shows me a lazy river.  humans are floating by on inner tubes.  tall skinny mountains are protruding from the water, very narrow at the top, wider at the bottom.  some of the people are just bouncing off the sides of the mountains and floating on by.  others get stuck on a mountain and can't get around it.  at first I thought the mountains were people, but it was broader than that.  the mountains represent any frustration or annoyance, anything that you find yourself in resistance to.


"what you resist has power over you, you get stuck on it because of the attraction created by your resistance.  you each have your own particular mountains, you have attracted them in order to learn the lessons they hold for you."

she shows me the water level sinking.  because the mountains are wider at the bottom, it becomes increasingly difficult to get past them as the water goes down.  she then raises the water level, until it is quite easy to get past the mountain tops.  then she shows the water level a little above the mountain tops, accompanied by a very free and easy feeling.  once in a while a mountain top will brush the underside of an inner tube, but it is fleeting and brief.


"the water represents flow.  the more flow you have, the less resistance, the less time you spend stuck on any particular problem or issue."

I really like that, it feels great.  how do I increase my flow?


"turn up your trust, your ease.  intend your flow to be smooth and abundant.  turn down your fear and your resistance."

thank you, millie.

the sea

millie shows me an underwater scene.  we are floating in the ocean, moving rhythmically back and forth with the tides, the waves.  the sunlight is filtering down upon sea urchins and schools of silvery fish.  we are dolphins.


"the creatures of the sea hold the energy of flow and connectedness for the planet.  they have chosen to do this.  they are full of love and light.


it is enough that you throw your physical garbage at them, your waste, your refuse, your toxic chemicals.  do not also throw your emotional garbage at them.  when you are upset and angry about what is happening to the planet, do not turn your thoughts to the sea and the creatures there.  the negative energy flows with your thoughts, and does not distinguish between the oil company executives and the sea creatures, the negativity blasts everything in its path.


to make a difference, to truly help, send only love and light to the creatures of the sea.  positive vibrations and healing energy are a much better gift than fear and anger.  better for them, better for you.  know that terrible things happen, understand that change will be healthier for the planet, and effect that change by shifting your own negative emotions into positive feelings for the planet and her children."

thank you, millie.