jump off the boat

I am still feeling somewhat overwhelmed by life these days, by the demands on my time and my apparent inability to make time for me.  I asked millie for help.  she shows me a small sailboat being tossed and buffeted by large white-capped waves in a somewhat stormy sea.  it's a pretty accurate portrayal of how I'm feeling.

the boat is me?

"you are on the boat."

why is the water so rough?

"because you are fighting it.  the boat represents the 'stuff' that humans construct around them to separate themselves from the flow.  the water is flow.  it can be gentle and easy or it can be rough, your choice."

she shows me dashing about on the sailboat, trimming sails, tying off lines, turning the rudder this way and that way, frantically trying to stay afloat and keep the boat headed where I want to go, as the waves crash into it and push it off course.  

all of the tasks, all of the things that I think I must do on the boat, those are all an illusion?

"yes."

what do I do?  if I stop sailing, won't I drown?

"you can't drown.  you and the water are the same.  you are part of the flow."

so what do I do?

"jump off the boat.  jump into the water."

she shows me swimming underwater with no apparent need to breathe, and then floating on the surface, completely relaxed.  


I am afraid of the water, I am afraid to leave the boat.  how do I overcome that fear?

"live in the moment.  stop living for the next.  be present now.  keep your focus now.  the flow will happen."

and I won't need the boat?

"correct."

thank you, millie.