it is somewhat intimidating to have a very eager cat waiting for me every morning with a new message for the blog. probably this is one of the things I am supposed to learn from this... how to trust what I'm getting, that I don't need absolute silence and calm in order to do this, that I'm hearing her correctly under pressure and just write it. I have a lot on my plate today, but millie is not in the mood to wait.
"much of what you do is motivated or shaped by fear. fear of social consequences for doing or saying something that other humans might not agree with. fear of ostracism, of not fitting in. fear of persecution or harm for speaking truth. many humans have died for speaking truth. many humans have killed others for their ideas. this fear is valid and real. it is okay to feel fear.
this is a special time. you can choose not to base your decisions in fear. you can push through the fear and be yourself in spite of it. many of you are learning this, or completing your learning of it, in this lifetime.
choose love. choose the opposite of fear in every moment, every decision, with every choice you make. be aware of your fear, make friends with it. know it. understand when it is pushing you and recognize that feeling. and be kind to yourself when you move because of the push. experiment with the idea that fear is not the end of everything, and the end of everything does not lie behind the fear."
wow, that sounds like a heck of an experiment.
thanks, millie.
Friday, January 29, 2010
Thursday, January 28, 2010
speak your truth
when I entered the building today, millie was waiting for me. she is sitting on my desk purring as I type around her.
"truth is relative. what is true for some is not true for all, and that is okay. your job is to speak your own truth, whether or not it is true in that moment for anyone else. your higher self is full of wisdom and you can access that. when someone says something that seems true to you, how do you feel that? how do you know it seems true? does it vibrate a certain way in your body? does it cause you to pause and think about it? does it make you breathe a different way?
listen to yourself, pay attention to the signs your body gives you that mean you are on the right track. the more you listen, the more you will hear. the more you hear, the more complete your picture of YOUR truth becomes for you.
this is important. it. is. okay. to. speak. your. truth. in fact, it is imperative."
when I reached that last point, millie left my desk and went to sit in the window. she says that is enough for now. she emphasizes the importance of this message.
on a personal note, this is something I've been thinking about, struggling with for a while now. worrying about what others think about what I believe kind of stresses me out. I really like the idea of everyone having their *own* truth, and that that is the way it is supposed to be. I'm going to live with that for awhile and see how it shifts things for me.
thank you, millie cat.
"truth is relative. what is true for some is not true for all, and that is okay. your job is to speak your own truth, whether or not it is true in that moment for anyone else. your higher self is full of wisdom and you can access that. when someone says something that seems true to you, how do you feel that? how do you know it seems true? does it vibrate a certain way in your body? does it cause you to pause and think about it? does it make you breathe a different way?
listen to yourself, pay attention to the signs your body gives you that mean you are on the right track. the more you listen, the more you will hear. the more you hear, the more complete your picture of YOUR truth becomes for you.
this is important. it. is. okay. to. speak. your. truth. in fact, it is imperative."
when I reached that last point, millie left my desk and went to sit in the window. she says that is enough for now. she emphasizes the importance of this message.
on a personal note, this is something I've been thinking about, struggling with for a while now. worrying about what others think about what I believe kind of stresses me out. I really like the idea of everyone having their *own* truth, and that that is the way it is supposed to be. I'm going to live with that for awhile and see how it shifts things for me.
thank you, millie cat.
Wednesday, January 27, 2010
how we learned to listen to millie
millie came to stay at the office, which suited her and we love having her here. her role has changed slightly over the years. at first, she was a greeter. she would come out and say hi to almost everyone who walked through the door. she would come into the exam room with some patients, talking up a storm and seemingly very insistent about telling us something.
being human, and rather caught up in our human-ness, we weren't very good about listening to her when she had something to say. in fact, it's a little embarrassing to look back on how dismissive we were when she offered her input. but one case changed all of that.
"I began to pay attention to the health of the animals who come here for diagnosis and treatment. I found that I frequently know what is wrong with them before my colleagues do.
one day, a woman came in with a very sick dog. the woman was extremely upset, another doctor had refused to run diagnostic tests that she requested, and was arrogant about and dismissive of her gut feeling about what was wrong with her dog.
our doctor examined the dog and was thinking the worst, cancer. the dog was very, very sick. but I knew it wasn't cancer, and I knew how that diagnosis would crush the woman, so I clawed at the exam room door until they let me in. I walked on the dog, so I could touch him with my paws and make sure that I was right before I said anything. then I turned to the doctor and told her it wasn't as bad as she thought."
this was a few years ago, before I started really trying to 'hear' millie at work. back then, when we knew millie had something to say we asked her questions and got yes or no answers via muscle testing. my talent for 'hearing' her came into play through knowing or guessing which questions to ask. here is how that conversation went:
millie, do you have something to say? (this is how we start every muscle-testing conversation with her, and it is a standing joke in the office now, as she makes it very clear when she has something to tell us.)
"yes."
is it about this dog?
"yes."
does he have cancer?
"no."
really!?!?
"no."
is he very sick?
"yes." (it was obvious that he was, but with muscle testing it's a good idea to throw in questions that you know the answers to along with the questions that you are looking for the answers to, in order to check to make sure you are getting accurate responses.)
is what he has treatable?
"yes."
is he going to die?
"no."
do we need to refer him for further diagnostics?
"yes."
millie was very sure that this dog did not have cancer and that what he had was treatable. we had played this kind of 20-questions game with millie before about patients that she indicated she had information about, but the difference with this case is that we took a leap and actually *told* the client that our cat said her dog could be treated.
wow. does that sound crazy, or what?
we believed, but hadn't actually discussed how or why we believed, that millie really did have a special talent when it came to understanding the inner workings of our patients.
we believed, but hadn't articulated, that we were getting good information when we asked millie questions.
without really thinking it through, or we probably never would have done it, we told this client that millie said her dog was going to be okay. both the doctor and I had our doubts about that. did I mention that this dog was really, really sick? the client was very relieved to hear what millie thought, even though we qualified it with 'we could be wrong's and 'this isn't scientifically sound's. she was in a much better frame of mind when she left the office than when she had arrived.
when we got the first referral report from the specialists, it said the xrays showed a large mass in the dog's lung. we were sure that confirmed our suspicion of cancer. the specialist thought so too, and they scheduled a surgery to biopsy the mass.
when we got the next referral report, it said the dog had a fungal infection, the mass had been removed successfully and he should be fine with long-term antibiotic therapy.
wow.
millie is sitting in front of me as I type this (good thing I've learned to type without looking) and she is purring.
"I like this story. it was a good example of the kind of cooperative relationship I have developed with my colleagues. I enjoy being here, being a part of the work that we do here. I enjoy being treated as an equal, and having my thoughts considered when I make them known.
this is how it can be with animals. we have a lot of wisdom to share, for those who listen.
my human friends are worried about putting this blog out there too widely. they are worried what people will think, how it will affect the business.
I am not worried. I know what I know. this is a good thing. this is truth."
as always, thank you, millie.
being human, and rather caught up in our human-ness, we weren't very good about listening to her when she had something to say. in fact, it's a little embarrassing to look back on how dismissive we were when she offered her input. but one case changed all of that.
"I began to pay attention to the health of the animals who come here for diagnosis and treatment. I found that I frequently know what is wrong with them before my colleagues do.
one day, a woman came in with a very sick dog. the woman was extremely upset, another doctor had refused to run diagnostic tests that she requested, and was arrogant about and dismissive of her gut feeling about what was wrong with her dog.
our doctor examined the dog and was thinking the worst, cancer. the dog was very, very sick. but I knew it wasn't cancer, and I knew how that diagnosis would crush the woman, so I clawed at the exam room door until they let me in. I walked on the dog, so I could touch him with my paws and make sure that I was right before I said anything. then I turned to the doctor and told her it wasn't as bad as she thought."
this was a few years ago, before I started really trying to 'hear' millie at work. back then, when we knew millie had something to say we asked her questions and got yes or no answers via muscle testing. my talent for 'hearing' her came into play through knowing or guessing which questions to ask. here is how that conversation went:
millie, do you have something to say? (this is how we start every muscle-testing conversation with her, and it is a standing joke in the office now, as she makes it very clear when she has something to tell us.)
"yes."
is it about this dog?
"yes."
does he have cancer?
"no."
really!?!?
"no."
is he very sick?
"yes." (it was obvious that he was, but with muscle testing it's a good idea to throw in questions that you know the answers to along with the questions that you are looking for the answers to, in order to check to make sure you are getting accurate responses.)
is what he has treatable?
"yes."
is he going to die?
"no."
do we need to refer him for further diagnostics?
"yes."
millie was very sure that this dog did not have cancer and that what he had was treatable. we had played this kind of 20-questions game with millie before about patients that she indicated she had information about, but the difference with this case is that we took a leap and actually *told* the client that our cat said her dog could be treated.
wow. does that sound crazy, or what?
we believed, but hadn't actually discussed how or why we believed, that millie really did have a special talent when it came to understanding the inner workings of our patients.
we believed, but hadn't articulated, that we were getting good information when we asked millie questions.
without really thinking it through, or we probably never would have done it, we told this client that millie said her dog was going to be okay. both the doctor and I had our doubts about that. did I mention that this dog was really, really sick? the client was very relieved to hear what millie thought, even though we qualified it with 'we could be wrong's and 'this isn't scientifically sound's. she was in a much better frame of mind when she left the office than when she had arrived.
when we got the first referral report from the specialists, it said the xrays showed a large mass in the dog's lung. we were sure that confirmed our suspicion of cancer. the specialist thought so too, and they scheduled a surgery to biopsy the mass.
when we got the next referral report, it said the dog had a fungal infection, the mass had been removed successfully and he should be fine with long-term antibiotic therapy.
wow.
millie is sitting in front of me as I type this (good thing I've learned to type without looking) and she is purring.
"I like this story. it was a good example of the kind of cooperative relationship I have developed with my colleagues. I enjoy being here, being a part of the work that we do here. I enjoy being treated as an equal, and having my thoughts considered when I make them known.
this is how it can be with animals. we have a lot of wisdom to share, for those who listen.
my human friends are worried about putting this blog out there too widely. they are worried what people will think, how it will affect the business.
I am not worried. I know what I know. this is a good thing. this is truth."
as always, thank you, millie.
how millie came to be with us
when I walked in the door this morning, millie had more important things than blogging on her mind. but immediately *after* breakfast, she informed me that today's topic is her story. I told her ok, I will go ask the doctor to tell me the story again about how you came to her. millie just looked at me. oh, you want to tell your own story.
"yes."
okay. tell me.
"I was living with a troubled family. they stopped feeding me. I thought I might be walking away to die, it was cold and there were lots of coyotes and foxes. something guided me to walk in a certain direction though. when I got to the house, I was weak and starving and barely had the strength to crawl up on the front deck. I think I slept a little, then a man was walking toward me and he picked me up and put me in the house. it was warm inside. I had a vague impression of other animals in the house, but no one felt dangerous, so I slept. later the people came home and fed me. I slept and slept for days, waking up to eat. when I started to regain my strength, the other cats started asking me questions and pushing me to interact with them. I had no answers to their questions, and I had no practice dealing with other cats, so I told them to stay away. they were persistent, and I wasn't nice about telling them to leave me alone, I even suggested that they leave. this went on for a while.
I was content, the people were nice and I was getting plenty of good food. the other cats were not behaving well, they didn't like my attitude and they expressed their displeasure by peeing all over the house. this made the people unhappy.
one day, the doctor brought me here to the office. at first it was confusing, my sleep schedule was disrupted. I soon decided that I really like it here, I enjoy meeting the people and some of the animals. I still don't care for other cats, but I've learned to ignore them. none of them stay very long.
at some point, it dawned on me that my new home is a healing center. I am a healer, I have always been a healer. what a perfect place for me to be!"
"yes."
okay. tell me.
"I was living with a troubled family. they stopped feeding me. I thought I might be walking away to die, it was cold and there were lots of coyotes and foxes. something guided me to walk in a certain direction though. when I got to the house, I was weak and starving and barely had the strength to crawl up on the front deck. I think I slept a little, then a man was walking toward me and he picked me up and put me in the house. it was warm inside. I had a vague impression of other animals in the house, but no one felt dangerous, so I slept. later the people came home and fed me. I slept and slept for days, waking up to eat. when I started to regain my strength, the other cats started asking me questions and pushing me to interact with them. I had no answers to their questions, and I had no practice dealing with other cats, so I told them to stay away. they were persistent, and I wasn't nice about telling them to leave me alone, I even suggested that they leave. this went on for a while.
I was content, the people were nice and I was getting plenty of good food. the other cats were not behaving well, they didn't like my attitude and they expressed their displeasure by peeing all over the house. this made the people unhappy.
one day, the doctor brought me here to the office. at first it was confusing, my sleep schedule was disrupted. I soon decided that I really like it here, I enjoy meeting the people and some of the animals. I still don't care for other cats, but I've learned to ignore them. none of them stay very long.
at some point, it dawned on me that my new home is a healing center. I am a healer, I have always been a healer. what a perfect place for me to be!"
Tuesday, January 26, 2010
your animals are here for you
when I walked through the office door this morning, millie came running, clearly ready to blog. as we had a busy morning scheduled, I had to apologize and ask her to wait. she came back later and told me about today's blog.
millie wants you to know:
"your animals are here for you. many of us chose to come as animals during this very interesting time, specifically to support you. being human is difficult, it requires a lot of courage and spiritual energy, especially right now. we are here for you, to love and support you, to guide you. we have a lot of wisdom to share. most of you can 'hear' us, but you aren't fully aware of it. trust the messages you get. let us support and love you, it's why we're here."
I stopped here, and she said there was more to her message.
"really lean on us. we are strong. this is not a one-way caretaking agreement, we signed on to take care of you too. let us."
talking to an animal is different than talking to a human. it uses a different part of your brain. instead of words, you get smells, feelings, ideas of things. you have to trust a) that you aren't crazy and b) that you are interpreting the message correctly. it takes a lot of trust. and practice. I have a feeling it is going to get easier, and that more people will become aware of the communication they have with their animals.
millie wants you to know:
"your animals are here for you. many of us chose to come as animals during this very interesting time, specifically to support you. being human is difficult, it requires a lot of courage and spiritual energy, especially right now. we are here for you, to love and support you, to guide you. we have a lot of wisdom to share. most of you can 'hear' us, but you aren't fully aware of it. trust the messages you get. let us support and love you, it's why we're here."
I stopped here, and she said there was more to her message.
"really lean on us. we are strong. this is not a one-way caretaking agreement, we signed on to take care of you too. let us."
talking to an animal is different than talking to a human. it uses a different part of your brain. instead of words, you get smells, feelings, ideas of things. you have to trust a) that you aren't crazy and b) that you are interpreting the message correctly. it takes a lot of trust. and practice. I have a feeling it is going to get easier, and that more people will become aware of the communication they have with their animals.
living in the moment, part 3
of course, when I shut down the computer yesterday, millie let me know that we hadn't *quite* captured her sentiments on living in the moment. I took notes and promised her I would update her blog today. so I am.
"if you stop throwing your energy into the past and the future, you will have more energy for now. you will be living more in the moment with more energy for everything. it will make love, tolerance and acceptance easier."
she finished with a very utopian picture/feeling (the main way I get my messages from her, most of the words are my interpretation of what she sends me) -- I interpreted the last bit as something like
"you can achieve world peace by living in the moment."
that's a nice thought.
"if you stop throwing your energy into the past and the future, you will have more energy for now. you will be living more in the moment with more energy for everything. it will make love, tolerance and acceptance easier."
she finished with a very utopian picture/feeling (the main way I get my messages from her, most of the words are my interpretation of what she sends me) -- I interpreted the last bit as something like
"you can achieve world peace by living in the moment."
that's a nice thought.
Monday, January 25, 2010
more about living in the moment
evidently, millie hadn't finished her thought about living in the moment when I blogged it. she climbed up on my lap and sat on my chest to let me know.
millie, do you have more to say?
"yes."
is it about the blog?
"yes."
is it about living from your heart?
"no."
about living in the moment?
"yes."
okay, what else would you like to say?
"living in the moment is a matter of bringing your awareness to now and keeping it here. now is really all there is. worrying about the future is silly and a waste of energy. the future isn't real, it is only possible. this is important to understand."
millie also let me know that she is pleased about her blog. she thinks it will be good practice for me, and she likes sharing her wisdom with people.
millie, do you have more to say?
"yes."
is it about the blog?
"yes."
is it about living from your heart?
"no."
about living in the moment?
"yes."
okay, what else would you like to say?
"living in the moment is a matter of bringing your awareness to now and keeping it here. now is really all there is. worrying about the future is silly and a waste of energy. the future isn't real, it is only possible. this is important to understand."
millie also let me know that she is pleased about her blog. she thinks it will be good practice for me, and she likes sharing her wisdom with people.
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