clear your space

I came to the office in a funk today.  nothing specific, just down and discouraged.  I was already wondering how to shake myself out of it.

millie showed me a human holding an umbrella in a soft rain.  there was a definite distinction between the atmosphere under the umbrella and the atmosphere outside of it.


"you are responsible for your space, for keeping it clear.  your space is approximately the size of the clearing under an umbrella.


to clear your space, give your own true vibration a color.  vibrate at that color for a moment, and then lighten it at least one shade.  bring your vibration up a notch.  think about vibrating at the new shade.  intend that you continue to vibrate at the lighter shade.  it doesn't require any effort, just intend.


use your tools.  check to make sure you are grounded. visualize the heavy energy leaving your space.  move it out with intention, without effort.  and it always helps to have a cat on your lap to pet.  we raise your vibration."

of course it worked.  I am feeling much better now.  I started with gray gloomy pictures of me under a black umbrella in a steady downpour on a cloudy day.  I ended up with a spring shower, the kind where the sun is shining through the rain, standing on bright spring green grass with little baby ducklings waddling around.  it was quite a shift.

and yes, millie was on my lap.  =)

thank you, millie.

difficult people

"difficult people are unhappy people.  they give themselves no permission to be free, to flow, to be happy.  they can't control their own lives, so many times they try to control the lives of others in order to gain control in their own.  they don't realize that control is an illusion.


they carry a lot of victim energy, and don't realize that they are the only ones standing between themselves and lightness of being.  they are constantly looking outward for someone or something to blame, never inward to accept responsibility for the life they are creating."

I ask her if she has any suggestions for dealing with difficult people.  any ideas for letting them brush by without affecting us.

"stay out of judgment.  allow them to walk their path.  allow them to be who they are.  avoid attracting that kind of energy to you by removing your attention and your focus.  don't dwell on the behavior of others.  use your tools -- stay centered, don't take on the vibration of others.  vibrate at you.


if you can't say something nice, say nothing."


so mom was right.  =)

thank you, millie.

lightness of being

millie shows me colorful helium balloons and hot air balloons floating through the sky.  I ask her why those things make me happy.


"they literally lift your spirit.  they remind you of your natural state:  free, light, floating, joyous"

she sends me a feeling like the giddy weightlessness at the top of the roller coaster, the free flying moment at the front and back of each arc of the swing on the swing set.

how do we achieve it?

"allow.  release.  it is a choice to hang on to heavy energy or to let it go.  tie each of your worries or troubles to a balloon and let it float away.  feel yourself getting lighter with each one gone.


pay attention to your vibration.  practice changing it.  practice raising your vibration.  think of the giddiness you felt as a kid.  match it.  hold it for a moment, or longer if you can.  it might be uncomfortable at first, it is unfamiliar to you now.  keep practicing, it will get easier.


each of you is a master musician, you can play any song you choose.  the more you practice the easier it gets.


seek out things that lift your spirits.  colorful balloons.  evergreen green against perfect sky blue.  sunlight sparkling on snow.  warm sandy beaches.  don't go into effort, just accept what comes to you and *focus* on it, even for a moment.  appreciate beauty all around you.  live from that space.


this is your natural state.  vibrate at peace and love and joy."

thank you, millie.

life, death, immortality

"humans have a lot of scary pictures about death.  know that those are just pictures.  what you call death is just a transition, a way of moving between levels."

I couldn't exactly translate what millie sent me about what we move between.  dimensions isn't right, levels isn't exactly right either, it's more like 'beingnesses' which I decided was too unwieldy, not to mention made up.

she shows me a river of light, and human forms getting into boats and traveling down the river of light until they disappear into a blinding white light that the river is flowing toward.


"life and death are both part of the flow.  the flow is endless and circular.  when you incarnate, you leave friends and loved ones behind in order to live in a body, to experience and learn the things that you can only learn while in body.  when you leave each lifetime, you leave friends and loved ones behind so that you can transition out of your body.


the lessons you learn during each lifetime, each in-body experience, help to move you along on your path as a spirit.  each lifetime changes us, helps us grow, and then we graduate to the next topic, phase, place on our path."

millie uses 'us' to mean all of us, animals and humans.  she also says not every lifetime is for learning and growing.  sometimes we just live.  we don't have to have goals.  there is no one keeping score.

"spend your time savoring life.  squeeze every drop of juice from the fruit.  stay present in the moment, do not worry about the future.  the future does not exist.  wild animals do not worry about 'not dying' they concentrate on 'staying alive.'  focus on now.  now is real.


children and animals understand that there is no end, only change.  you learn your death pictures as you grow up in human society, and you agree to pick them up and carry them forward with you.  children and animals generally do not come into the world with death pictures.  they come in with the understanding that the you that is your spirit will never end, cannot be killed, will cycle through many lifetimes as the flow continues to move us all in the dance of life and death and life again.


we are all immortal, and each lifetime is a gift, a choice.  enjoy your time here, learn your lessons or not, know that you will be back.  set down your death pictures and enjoy the flow."

regression

"infants and toddlers throw a tantrum when things don't go their way.  this frustration and anger and helplessness that lead to violence - let's call it ogre energy - this ogre energy is an early attempt at getting your needs met.  it worked ok then.  it doesn't work too well now.


sometimes you regress when you experience a feeling that reminds you of ogre energy, particularly frustration.  when you feel frustrated, especially when there is some self-blame going on, it is easy to slide into ogre energy.  only now, when you feel ogre energy, you generally don't direct it outward, you direct it inward.  you yell and scream at yourself, you are impatient and intolerant and not nice.  you hit and kick and behave badly.  you beat yourself up. and then you beat yourself up even more for allowing the internal tantrum, for being an ogre to yourself.  it's a no-win.


it is not easy being human.  you have so many habits - personal, social, as a species - that lead you to self-violence.  I invite you to practice love, practice understanding, practice forgiveness.  practice on *you.*


give yourself permission to learn and grow and make mistakes.  permission to be human.  permission to *be.*


when you feel frustrated, allow it.  when you are angry, allow it.  feel your feelings and then move on, don't punish yourself for them.  be an ogre if you need to be.  and then lighten up!"

walls

"the walls that keep you safe keep you trapped.  what keeps others out also keeps you in.  humor at your own or others' expense is a wall.  sarcasm is a wall.  you have other tools to establish your boundaries.  


live from your heart.  let your love melt the walls.  don't be afraid to reach out, don't be afraid to let others reach in.  your common sense will not desert you.  you will still be safe from harm, your space will be filled with love, and you will be free."

I am having a hard time thinking of what might remain funny if I can't laugh at myself and others.

"it's the quality of laughter that matters.  don't be mean about it, don't invite others to ridicule you, don't ridicule yourself.  laugh at everything, life is not serious, humans just tend to make it so.  you will do things that make you laugh.  you will make mistakes.  laugh at them, enjoy your learning process.  laugh with joy.  laugh with love.  laugh with, not at."

I'm getting sort of a naked feeling when I think about moving through life with no protective walls.

"that way of thinking is a habit.  instead of viewing the walls as protective, think of them as restrictive, heavy, burdensome.  because that is what they are, that is how they function.  they keep you from connection, they impede flow.  it's hard to float when you are wearing a heavy wall."

true.  I can see that.

"you don't have to go cold turkey.  experiment by dropping the walls with people you feel safe with.  or just one person.  find out for yourself that the world won't come rushing in to attack.  your boundaries are secure, they are light and flexible and filled with love.  they float with you in the flow."

thank you, millie.                        

celery song

so, millie, what's the topic today?

"celery."

celery?

"yes."

the vegetable?  (truly, I couldn't make this stuff up.)

"yes."

what about it?

"it grows in a nice, compact group.  every stalk fits together.  humans are like that.  you grow best when surrounded by others who fit.  you nurture and support one another, you aren't all the same, but you complement one another."

so we need to look for our bunch of celery?

"yes."

and then?


"grow, support each other, be synergistic, vibrate in harmony.  your individual vibrations will combine to make a song.  the music of the universe is made up of individual vibrations and groups of vibrations.  the more you walk your path, the clearer your vibration becomes.  sing your song.  make your music."

thank you, millie.